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2008-06-19T15:39:00.003+08:00

Next Friday going Bangkok! wee..

Flight 1

Friday, June 27, 2008
Status: confirmed
Departure: 14:15 Singapore, Singapore - Changi, terminal 2
Arrival: 15:40 Bangkok, Thailand - Suvarnabhumi International
Airline: Singapore Airlines SQ976
Duration: 2:25

Flight 1

Monday, June 30, 2008
Status: confirmed
Departure: 19:10 Bangkok, Thailand - Suvarnabhumi International
Arrival: 22:35 Singapore, Singapore - Changi , terminal 2
Airline: Singapore Airlines SQ981
Duration: 2:25

A good respite i guess.

And Angela YOU FUCKER! SEE YOU SOON! GRR hahaha.. we are going to pack from scratch what to bring to Bangkok!

Preparing Itinery by Monday. Yawn. Last week working. Gonna miss everyone esp Esther!

And very much soon, i be Tuition-ing kids. Oops sorry ignore the F word in bold. Ahem.

2008-05-08T14:47:00.002+08:00

I am at work now. But what i am actually doing is checking on the best price to Bangkok.

Hopefully, all go well and by then, sawadeecap Thailand! haha.. I be going Malaysia on 8th June onwards also. June onwards will be quite exhilarating for me..

Ever since i married the fucker named 'Twenty-one" on 31st March, he gave me so much trouble. Sibei Sian ah..Even now I go Sakae Sushi also can't enjoy the discounted student price. If 'Twenty-one' and I were married, thats when we'll get divorce. There is nothing to my advantage other than the introduction of more papers which incidentally are named 'BILLS'.

Life is getting tragic.

Even the Beef noodle stall auntie got to cheat me by giving me 1 lesser beef ball. I know the inevitable inflation setting in. But aren't the supply side policy ( ceteris paribus ) we learn during our Macro Econs days supposed to tackle the inflation? haha. O gosh, reminiscing the horrors during JC Days esp during Econs. Classic.

I was frantically searching for the perfect Youtube vid on the net and i came across this guy named Nigahiga. Damn funny. He is like the lamest shit ever. You guys gonna check him out. And also that bitchy 'what the buck' show. His mouth is unceasingly in the most active state, commentating on all the most random facts in celebrity world.

I like the one where he spoofed the Canada News Caster who actually strips au naturel while broadcasting news. He was like spoofing the channel, saying 'hey girl! i donno how your nipples can take it, but i am feeling cold!' LOL.. there is also another episode of him commenting on Oprah: "HEY GIRL! can i call you girl? HEY GIRL!" fucking hilarious.

O well, 23 more days to Sex and the City. Its gonna be at least m18, so i was told. So yeepee! at least its not being cut to suit the box office drama. Moreover, lesser kids so better watching experience. I mean i do not want to constantly feel pissed by children making lots of noise in the cinema.

Its okay for Spongebob Squarepants movie but not SATC! But my brother is pissed that he cannot join me to watch Sex and the City. I mean, there will be lots of vaginas and boobies action, so not very appropriate ya. But, boys will still watch knowing their pattern.

Anyway Angela left my company. No more 'nabei' sessions. Sian. Dont let me see her soon! She better learn Akido, or i tie up her boobs!

Before i end this post, I had an epiphany. I am actually better off as a part time lover and a full time friend. I still do not think i would sacrifice my time solely on relationships and not doing the stuffs i like.

The perfect imperfection eh?

2008-04-16T13:51:00.004+08:00

Now back at office.

Finished my first major launch for Straumann. Its some Atas kind of event where the food is sumptuous, lavish and savoury. Thanks to all the temp staffs that was part of the event. I hope i was a good host eh? haha.

Below are a few photos of the event. Of course there is yours truly here. I mean how many times would i be seen wearing a Blazer?

Magnificent isnt it? I especially loved the grandeur touch of the Harpist Ms Magdalene. She is cool.hurk hurk. O and of course not forgetting Anna Belle Francis that pretty lady. You cannot even tell with her svelte figure and sexylicious derriere that she actually has two kids. But she is smart and therefore looks good in her own LV bag. I mean thats what i mean, you dont even have to try harder and tada! you look gorgeous. It was definitely a pleasure to work with her.

If only they have budget for some models to do some couture fashion thingy. Needless to say, the event had drained me. Logically, a short respite would be ideal after the night. And therefore, I joined Yang and gang at Loof bar. I love bars with good ambience. It lets ur mind settle for something surrealistic when you have been in reality all the while. So i guess, it was a well spent Saturday.

Anyway did some photoshoot at Yang place the other time for his portfolio. It doesnt even look like me. Lol. o well. So fake haha..

And also not forgeting the other time we organised some Bangla and Indian Sentosa Event. As usual, when there is sea, sun and Camera. What do you do? well me and Angela began our 'moment of fame' ahhaha..

*NOTICE HER BOOBS* If thats not huge/colossal, i donno what is. lol

2008-04-09T02:53:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged. In a whizz and i have already worked in Urban for 6 months.

Still the same old me.

Cant lie about my age though. I am fucking 21 now. So yay to the so called new found independence.

Well. I have grown. I dont talk as much nowadays. And yeah, what happened to all the parties? I need a focus in life. It comes to a point where you sit around Starfucks, stirring your usual Espresso yet not knowing what to expect for the rest of your life. Depressing eh?

Guess its the weather. Fuck.

O before i forgot. I got myself a tattoo! Good boy gone bad? nah. Its just an expression. Still as amicable and nice as always.

My new found focus in life is travelling. Next trip is Bangkok! so yup.. cant wait to spank myself over.

Still live under the phrase: I am just a guy, so please be gentle with my heart. Should you find me, please return to the nearest Library.

Getting lamer day by day. I have no idea why? Indolence is setting in.

Heard this logic somewhere. I think its twisted. But it gives prostitutes a new light:

Money equals power
Sex equals power.
Therefore, giving money for sex is merely an exchange of power.

LOL. Twisted i noe, but sometimes it sounds a little logical eh? Life's weird. Alright laters.

2007-12-08T11:13:00.000+08:00

After i have AWOL-ed for like months from my already dysfunctioned blog, let me just say.. i ORD-ed LO! haha.. In a whizz and here i am a free man... And ppl say when u go through NS, you are in for a real transition from Boys to Men...

So I am a true man now ( so they say )lol.. Please, i am still childish in my heart.. but come on, whats there to be so serious from the already stressful and face paced City...

But its true, cause I have more responsibilities now and stuffs. Its no longer just play and joke around.

As most of my friends already know, I am currently working as an events exec, which is a good basis for me to gain as much experience as possible. Although its kinda tiring and stuff, i do managed to make crazy new friends. Thats a total Bonus..

I would never forget the first day at work when Angela my colleague threw her handphone onto the floor out of desperation to get the phone working. God knows how many parts did that pathetic phone split into. And not forgeting her explicit and excessive usage of Vulgarities, ranging from Nabei to whatever else u can think of.

She is like the epitome of My Sassy Girl lol.. You go girl hahaha...

Okay anyways, just wanna say i am getting pretty fine now and i cannot wait for UNI! Will update soon.. Its time to revive my blog... So yup, logging off...

2007-04-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

A little update squeezed out from my mundane NS life.

Yep for the record, i am left with 6 months before i fuck off from the ever disgusting G-ards camp. Cannot write the full name cos apparently stuffs in camp written on blog can be sued haha.. Anyway yesterday saw a sergeant cried. The thought of him being bullied by grotesque looking creatures inside ( Esp those of high positions ) disgust me completely. Eeks..

Anyway dont wanna probe too much bout this life that i do not even consider part of my lifetime.. I just take it as a dream that lasted 1 year plus.

I didnt know erotic novels are actually pretty fuckin hard to write. I was perusing through some nice erotic novels and realised that the author manage to write stuffs that sets u in an orgasmic mood but not yet making a pornographic statement. Its all in the words i guess. I am really impressed.

Its not always " O fuck me! " that kind. Their descriptions are so vivid and explicit with minimal expletives. Interesting.

One last thing, i need to rediscover my communication and writing skills. I have realised that after entering NS, it seems that my expressions, thoughts and the choice of words are so shallow that i was pretty shock that i am losing the culture that i have developed since my JC days. I miss school! haha...

2007-03-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

Well i donno how else to convey my emotions and thoughts right now.. so i have decided to write a poem to sum things up...

WITHERED

There were my smiles brightened by your presence,

That of mystifying quietness that shook my heart,

Then were the courage that promises me a life,

That conquered my already dubious heart.

Than i knew right from the start without much hesistant,

That i will give in as much as if my heart was new.

Than i gave chance for my still recovering heart,

That what i feel would soon be real.

Now gone are the days I thought i loved and was loved,

That i was only but a toy and almost fun to be with.

Now i almost remembered the past that you chose,

That reminded me my tears was never real.

But what's then and now didnt matter,

All that's left are nothing but remnants,

That of your selfishness,

In solitude,

Alone.

Notice how the withering effect goes down the lines. Well thats a poem that i created. hmm.. bookin in now.

2007-03-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

Went home at 6 plus am after staying at Yang's and after a series of dancing in various clubs. Wasnt in the best of mood. Ate Tom Yum which equals Yum yum. haha.. Yang say i very stubborn, scared spicy food still bombard the Tom Yum with so much chilli. Heh

Anyway to cut things short, heres what happened when i was waiting for the bloody cab at 6 plus am.

As an impatient Aries, i was standing at the crossroads, feeling extremely exhausted and i could not really choose an Emoticon to register on my face.

1) Saw a cab. I smiled. Just as the cab stopped, this fuckin guy shamelessly opened the door and went in. I wanted to scream fuck you, but i suddenly realised how connected it is to my life and i smiled.

2) Then came another cab, it stopped in front of me, there was a couple. I opened the door like what a gentleman would do ( scolded by girls since Sec 1 that i am ungenteman but thats not the point ). Woman alighted, smiled at me. Guy still inside and cab went off. This time, i grinned.

3) Finally, the fuckin cab came. Guess what? met into a road block. This time, i cant be bothered.

So if u guys can appreciate the point i am trying to bring across from the above scenarios as a reference to my life, you would definitely agree with me on my life right now.

Upcoming events: My 20th Birthday. Not that i am very particular bout this day, i was just saying. haha.. -daggers up-

And come Friday, you will see a different me. I am gonna go for a radical change. My frens shall see.. hurk hurk

2007-03-09T12:24:00.000+08:00

I miss my gorgeous MUMMY! -pouts-

Never see her like two weeks already i think. -double pouts-

But i noe she misses me too anywhere anytime. hurk hurk... Cos we always have that Mother and Son telepathy -winks-

so to my dearest mummy.. pls meet up soon! haha.. sound like some fren like that.. aiya really miss her ma..

2007-02-25T23:27:00.001+08:00

The weekend was a fruitful one. And i am contented. Now i am in the midst of packing my stuffs for camp tomorrow. Boring yes i noe, but thinkin bout the number of months left till ORD is making up for all the distress that has been thrusting my brain into various levels of acute agony lol..

Hmm.. so lets see, Friday was spent with my relatives in the morning while i continue to catch some sleep before meeting someone. Well to make it short, we had a great time at Sentosa playing the incredibly addictive Luge.

Went MOS in the night. Sucks. But funny things happened. or should i say a totally embarrassing thing happened. Well as u see, i was wearing a belt for the night. And then came this gal who had several hooks around her skirt. The inevitable happened when my belt was caught up with her butt hook.

It looks as if i was having Anal sex with her la! so paiseh pls.. somemore she was in a hurry and i was being dragged across for a few metres. Her skirt almost fell off. I was like oh oh oh shit.. hahah.. and because the music was not only irritatingly loud, i had to hurry stop her before both of us laughed like donno what. O well.. life goes on.

Sat was spent watching a very intensely acted and disturbing drama - Notes on a scandal. Kudos to Judi Drench the lao zhar bor who acted incredibly well as a dark and possessive lesbian. Totally hideous.

Together with Ju, we went over to Ryan's to wait for him to finish work. We headed down to St James fashionably late! haha.. Thanks to Ju, we are under the guest list anyway. And so went in Dragonfly and was astounded by the number of ppl into cantopop. O well, not really my thang. The age limit was rather high, which explains the number of older ppl.

Movida was great too with that La Brazilian De Haven feel. It was totally a different experience from the usual Rnb songs. Loved the music.

My personal fave gotta be The Boiler Room! woots.. the live band was awesome! The gals can sing really well, very divalicious and many tasteful renditions of RnB songs ranging from Beyonce to Fergie ha! Was really blown away by their powerful vocals.

PLEASE PPL DONT WATCH EPIC MOVIE! I SLEPT!

alright. Thats all for the updates. I sure did maximise my time for the weekends.

On a last note, Why do i keep wanting to just make this person happy even though that person may not actually like me? and like my character always: sometimes i noe i am not the one but I'll still continue to hover.

2007-02-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

hehe this is me and my brother during CNY..

nothing much. played mahjong for the past few days. Won quite alot. Feeling contented. lol

2007-02-20T03:19:00.001+08:00

Love Reflection.

Speaking of love. Well i gotta say, it has been a rough ride for me these past few days. haven been in a good mood or should i say in a situation filled with mixed emotions. It wasnt exactly an emo thing. Its more like a self reflection of why i seem to not be able to be frens with cupid who i always and constantly admire ( ONLY FROM FAR ) lol. it seems that my endless pursues in love keep getting further from me than i could possibly hope for. I always wondered am i really that bad? as in i look around me. Ppl get attached just like that -piak- U noe LIKE THAT? haha

I just dont get it.

Is it cos i am not THAT MAN ENOUGH? OR not that CUTE? I got FACE what! not that flawless skin la but so? I can go IPL or STEM CELL FACIAL!.. i dont look like donkey or whale. I dont suffer from elephantasis or something. I am so much nicer than last time. someone pls tell me. I am willing to change ppl! Is it cos i must be bad to make an impact?

This whole obsession with love becomes like an intricating web of mysteries filled with endless clues that lead to nowhere. Its like a genre on its own and i am just the only cast with a script full of satires and metaphors for me to decipher. its exhausting but as an Aries, the more i cant get, the more i will pursue. and thats bad.

You noe sometimes you just noe that things are bad and u just smile because u think things will actually change but in fact it does not? i guess that smile is all a facade to hide what i really feel, that i should just leave for good. hmm.. i ponder...

I totally blame myself for not being perfect, not even close to being what i thought i am. I blame myself for being unable to convey a positive love attitude towards ppl i like. I guess its all boils down to just me and me. And its a total situation of me against me. I guess i need some time to find out what i should improve on. But i do learn that being nice is definitely not that important a factor when comes to love.

After much deep musing and passing each days trying to figure out an answer, i have decided to retreat, not so much give up. I am not giving up life la! haha

I just sort of realised Carrie Bradshaw was right all along, in life there are no safety net. And when u fall so hard, there is never a guarantee that person would be there to catch u. Its true. I completely comprehend. Yes i should not be staying there too long just to find out how NOT GOOD the situation is.

So smile Benji, cos tomorrow will be worse. There goes stupid Murphy's law. hate him but he is so true sometimes. HA!

2007-02-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

Woke up after 3 hours and so here i am blogging after buying 4D and dyeing my aunt's blob hair. You can almost see a brand new me given that my eyes are so painful now, i gotta wear specs as a result. And so i look like some nerd! and according to my beloved little brother ( not down there! ), I look like shit or so he says with that evil grim from his disgusting yet completely flawless face. Whatever!

and here goes the shitty face!

2007-02-17T05:18:00.000+08:00

Its the wee hours of the morning of CNY Eve and i just came back. The funny thing is i still feel kinda hyperactive and exceptionally refreshed after the long shower. O its like 5:20 am now! haha and grandma with her cute little sleepy eyes was preparing stuffs for the reunion dinner and all tonight! yay!

And so the very helpful Benji volunteered, i repeat VOLUNTEERED to help her do some preparation cos i just could not sleep. But i cannot wait for the upcoming mahjong sessions and u noe all the congregation of frens and relatives for this much anticipated time of the year! Other than the practical stuffs like more HongBaos and more good food lol.

Rewind a little, i was at town doing last minute shopping cos i have been at home for the past few days anyway.. Yang wanted to change his tops at Topman. But we realised we dont have the receipt. And so with a little warm yet not so fake smile, i persuaded the guy to let us exchange the tops.. YAY! for the record, my PR skills arent that bad alright..

After which saw lots of ppl in town and we were contemplating whether to watch DreamGirls or not. Yes, we eventually watched the movie but i thought the movie was kinda slow. Maybe its really late already. But still, i must say Jennifer Hudson's rendition of And i am not telling you blew me away totally. She was so passionate and uncompromisingly raw in her emotions that at some point i could actually feel her deepset excruciation, the acute agony of feelings that she wanted so much to convey to the audience through the song. I was closed to tears. It was breathtaking.

Beyonce was like as usual divalicious. Not very promising actually her performance. It felt kinda superficial. Its like she tried too hard to get into her role. But we all do noe how overachieving she is. I mean she is gorgeous, can sing, can dance, can be a top model. What more does she want? maybe she dont have a great love life? hmm

And talk bout looking impossibly fresh looking later! goodness. Even whatever dandelion herbs also cant save my eyes la. And now i have to go down buy eggs with my thick specs! lol But i think i look cute with my thick specs. YEs i noe..kill me! bhb little bit wont die la ah

fine.. time to scurry off and embrace ZZZz Monster soon!

2007-02-16T15:40:00.000+08:00

My insaitiable appetite towards Curry had reached divine levels by the time i reached home from CGH.

I stared at those little chicky wings and i could practically see their depressing faces begging me not to devour them! Sorry wings hurk hurk. Gotta eat ya! yum yum.. I ate 7 chicky wings! yay! lol.. and then came the horror! i think the wings had mariculously acquired high defence system and are in full battle order!. Maybe they are soaked in bird nest or whatever, they fought and bombed their way down my stomach like as if they are equipped with grenade launchers and mortars! yikes...

Part 1: THE BAK KUA + ICE CREAM DREAM

it all began after i fell asleep at around 10 yesterday. Guess what did i dream of? for the next 3 hours, my dream revolved only around this gigantic piece of bak kua that that i have been trying to consume but couldnt due to its massive size. Just as i was bout to munch it, i woke up! lol

And so with that sleepy head of mine, i jumped out of my bed, headed straight to the kitchen. And guess what i saw. Bak Kua! haha.. it was cut into small sizes and stationed right beside the fridge.

With that evil grimace and yearning eyes, i grabbed as many as possible and stuffed it into my mouth. For a moment i felt like a damn horny rapist who is on the verge to strip his victim. muahahah! It went on for some time until i am completely satisfied. And i could not believe i ate so many that there are only 10 pieces left! i guessed the bak kuas would be thinking 'what a FUCKER!' lol

Then i went back to sleep. And now, no more bak Kua dream. Instead, i dreamt of ice cream! haha..and i woke up at around 5 plus and grabbed that Hagen Daz ice cream and stuffed it into my mouth like snow balls.. ha!

It was definitely a yummilicious night affair with Ms Kitchen!

Part 2: OUSTED!

It all happened at CGH. I was early for my appointment and decided to sit at the waiting area hoping that someone could talk to me or something. Cos i was so fucking bored. As if its not tormenting enough, as i waited, couples followed by more couples sauntered into the clinic like its another Valentine.

For that moment, it felt as if i was joining those pregnant mums aqua aerobics or something. And they prolly have banners like: Protecting your baby and u! haha.. gosh. I wonder if i were to fall down there would they even notice? arg..

o Happy New Year to all! and i gotta take my leave...

2007-02-15T04:15:00.000+08:00

So the most anticipated ( by most couples ) or the most hated ( by some singles ) day has arrived and gone in a twinkling of the eye. So Valentine's just whizzed past and now at the wee hours of ValentinE: The Aftermath, i am smiling at my laptop because i just had a hell lot of fun at Zouk.. Mambo Jumbo night! I really love all my frens who are there gyrating their body to maximum intensity as the club rumbled the night!

I have to say i wasnt in a great mood anyway due to various reasons but yeah what the fuck, still had a great time!

This is the first time i actually stayed at Zouk for so long without even thinking of doing those RnB so called Sensual dancing at Phuture. I guess i prefer the simple yet meaningful lyrics of Retro music.

In the past, romance is so simple yet touching and direct. Ppl in the past seem to be so easlily contented with love. Things like, 'i walk down the road hand in hand and i know i loved u'.

Now, song lyrics are so much more sexually explicit. Take My neck my back, lick my pussy and my crack. haha.. Its so vulgar yet we love such songs now. Guess the world is different now when comes to love. Not that i am good at this department btw. I am just highlighting the trend that i observed. But anyway, what the fuck, just listen to whatever is nice!

So i am kinda exhausted right now and pardon me for all the rubbish rantings. So on a more 'sore loser' mode lol, To all single people of the world: continue looking for love! and for all couples: GOOD LUCK! haha.. yeah i am jealous.. lol.. Fine fine.. To all couples: last Forever!!!!! whateveR!

Anyway i was wondering to myself : so after trying so hard to touch the hearts of ur love ones at this lovely day, do couples cease loving each other as much after Valentine's? is all just a day to impress? hmm... maybe i am being cynical. I guess some couples really do celebrate their love everyday as if its Valentine. aww!

2007-02-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl.. was browsing Youtube videos and i finally found the clip of Jay singing Soda Shop as seen in Shortbus. (Shortbus is this explicit movie bout ppl who go to a salon to have orgies, exploring their sexuality). You ppl gotta listen to this song, its very soothing.

I got so bored at home resting, that i began to develop this weird syndrome of reading massive amounts of articles from Wikipedia. Can you imagine i actually read stuffs like gestation period of baby giraffe to the origins of Nezha. Yes, wikipedia is full of information and i think i am hooked.

I got so crazy, i started flipping through my sec 4 Biology text book and realised how many interesting stuffs i have neglected last time. I have a mixed feeling that soon i will be this NErd boy next block. But you noe, as Paris Hilton always say: Thats HOT. lol

Watching Paris Hilton in Simple Life 4 doing all the bimbotic stuffs made me wonder my existence in life and what would i do if i were her. I think i would try to at least reach IQ of 5 instead of negative. The things she said were seriously jaw dropping. Can u imagine a person not being able to switch off a bloody Vacuum Cleaner? My goodness.

Digress a little. I realised something bout myself. The brands of underwear i wear really determine my mood for the day. Lets say i wear my Diesel Undies, I would get frustrated easily. And when i am wearing CK black ones, i would feel happy for the day. O no, i think i am getting more and more absurd day by day. Hmm..

O well, boring life for now, but still. The Seed Of Chucky is waiting for me! hurk hurk. YAY! today's theme is HORROR! Blood.. YEs MORE BLOOD! -evil smile-

Anyway heres a random picture.. haha.. Yang's expression so hilarious.

2007-01-30T03:19:00.000+08:00

I know i havent been updating.. But i gotta blog today because my head felt so heavy with information and so many things are constantly swivelling in my mind.. arg... I promise today's entry would be very frank, interesting and juicy... yupp..

Let me start by sharing with u guys of this short Article that i randomly read in Style Magazine.. Do you noe that MEN CAN ACTUALLY LACTATE?

I mean seriously when i first read the article ( the first Bold header ), the first thing i did was to check on my nipples to see if there are any stains of milk.. No joking..

Nipples checked! No milk.. Phew..

I proceeded to read and it says that with a certain amount of intense stimulation of the nipples -usually by weeks- A guy can actually produce milk! goodness.. and i thought i was safe. Apparently, males do have mammary glands and that’s the reason for cases of males having Breast cancer. So, given that I am a visual person, I gotta find out more.. and to my utter horror, there is really this guy in Sri Lanka who breast fed his son everyday after the death of his wife. I stared at the pictures agape.

However, one thing for sure: I would never try to make my nipples swollen just to believe there is a certain possibility of me lactating. Well, in this case, denial is the best haha… But still hmm..

Anyway, back track a little. I saw this Calvin Klein Red boxer and I simply cant wait to buy it! its so sexy and irresistably cute...O well, given that CNY is around the corner; maybe I should wear it at home at NYE! Hurk hurk.. sexy what.. Although I pretty much prefer to be butt naked when sleeping..-winks-

And guess what? I have also decided to invest a little on a sex toy for myself! C’mon. it is not something to shy about. I mean don’t tell me you don’t MASTURBATE? Try harder. Ahem…I know you guys must be thinking, o this horny guy sure everyday jerk off.. Sad to say, no leh.. In fact, my libido is close to zero nowadays.. haiz.. Okay I have decided to invest because

a) I think I am sexually dysfunctional
b) My sex drive is depleting exponentially
c) Once in a while I may have the need ma…
d) I am just playful..hehe

And thanks to Samson, he told me that the Condomania lady told him to tell me that the new range of vibrators are available. I was like omg. I mean maybe I gave her a great impression that day when I checked out the vibrators. She was like introducing me the usual cock rings and stuffs and I was like, can I see something more intense? Its so unfair, Women seems to have more choices in sex toy. Haha.. totally hideous.

Last topic before I end this entry: Sex: The AFTERMATH

This topic is kinda interesting because I saw this website about Singaporean girls getting all worked up over the things their boyfrens do after sex. Its kinda hilarious because in my opinion, there are 4 general types of guys and I am one of them I think ( I am still a virgin technically speaking ). Guess which?

1) The ‘Lets sleep and talk tomorrow’ guy

This is the guy who is usually traditional and unromantic. Right after he climaxed, he would usually kiss his gf goodnight and fall asleep even before the gf could react. A big turn off, but I think these are the more honest ones. There is a reason actually. After copulation, both sexes would release this hormone which is supposed to create this soothing effect. And I guess the soothing effect works pretty well with such guys and thus the sleeping phenomenon.

Solution: I wouldn’t suggest grabbing his already flaccid dick or initiating foreplay once more. Guys usually after ejaculation would be quite turn off bout sex for a while, unless he is super Chiongster type. Well, just accept the imperfection ya. Although I think it will be kind of like a Bam WHAM THANK YOU MADAM situation here. O well, I am sure he still loves u! I hope haha

2) The ‘Can we cuddle’ guy

This is the guy who totally knows the art of intimacy after sex. Usually he would love to cuddle with his gf to sleep and talk bout sweet loving stuffs and is a hopeless romantic. There is no need for a solution here but there is a catch! I don’t think the chances of getting such guys are high. Even so, sweet guys are not that simple. O well, just remain hot and attract his attention and he will sure stay faithful to u.

3) The ‘Aspiring to win cleaning competition’ guy

The title says it all. This guy would jump right into the shower to clean up and be refreshed before cuddling the gf to sleep. He would expect the gf to do so too. It may be a turn off to some but hmm, its also good in a way I think.

Solution: Obviously, shower with him! May as well bathe together in lavender essence or massage each other in the bath tub. There is nothing you can change if he is a clean freak. So adapt I guess. Lol

4) The ‘I need something to bite’ guy

O well, I wouldn’t want to say much bout this type of guy cos I think I AM THIS TYPE.. haha.. Seriously, I think right after sex, the first thing that come to my mind would be: I feel like eating ice cream. Haha. Haiya ppl always want to eat something what. O well, this type of guy good okay, will always ensure the gf is well fed and cheeky enough for food sex lol. Hmm, I don’t think I will change this habit, but I guess having food together in bed would be a plus point ya!

Alright ppl, this is a really long entry and hope it brightens your day! Everything is just my opinion; it’s just merely for fun reading. O fuck its already so late. Okay blog another time!

2007-01-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

Its raining Cats and dogs.. cows and Chickens but THEN i still love the weather! its so cooling.. the feeling is like going Wild Wild Wet everday la..

Today had my haircut by Danny who is such a good hairstylist! really so sweet of him to come all the way to my house to cut my hair and my Aunt's hair...

Anyway back track a little.. as usual Sweet Ben Ben decided to cheer his -always gorgeous in my heart- Fernie by sending her a bouquet of roses.. haha.. I know she loved it and definitely melting sensations and all... but o well as long as she is happy.. so is Ben Ben..

And i totally blame NTUC for not cooperating me to deliver a Bouquet of Vegetables cos they tell me they dont have such services... arg.. pissed la! otherwise Fernie sure peng one lo.. which i thought was quite cute.. imagine roses replaced by cabbages and stalks from long beans and carrots as decoration lol...

Hmm.. anyway i am starting to get the 'no stingray no sleeping' effect.. I want to lift my leg high, picking my teeth like some ah pek and drinkin beer haha.. that be so fun..

Anywayz.. gotta talk on the phone..so yup.. update again!

2007-01-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

Can Channel 5 stop showing SEXY GIRL DANCERS! haha arg!! stop distracting me.. Ya noe how i can go crazy over them! Enough already!

Yesterday had this very funny dream.. not wet dream la.. but something nice.. hahha.. I dreamt that i am attached with Gisele but the thing is in my dream she had acne. LOL.. but then we kissed and all.. and it was the best ever.. then we bout to have sex at her house and wala i woke up ! LMAO..

Yes before anyone shoot me i just wanna say. I DONT DESERVE GISELE I KNOW.. but Dreams are fantasies.. and Fantasies cannot be censored! =P

2007-01-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Quick updates.. Due to constant pain in my neck, i daringly went for the operation. Apparently i was the second in CGH to do this operation. Basically its just two incisions on the both sides of my throat. Think along the line of me being bitten by a Dracula with extremely big mouth haha..

Ya its painful duh.. But i am recovering well.. so yup frens dont worry much..

Today i Bombed some cash on DIOR hahha... And on my next pay which is tomorrow.. i am so rooting on the new CHANEL NANOLOTION ... Lets just say this period of time at home, i have been taking care of my face.. and all.. so now my face has no resemblance to any crater marks or whatever crop circles thank u..

Speaking of meteors, it was reported that there was this sighting of a green thing being spotted in Singapore possibly a meteor.. cool man..

Watching THE ARENA now.. it does reminisce the days when i was in the class debate team.. haha.. i must say the topics are a little bit boring to debate.. o well blog again tomorrow... Thats life at home..

Wake up, eat, sleep and repeat mode.. time goes by.. so slowly.. arg....

2007-01-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Heres a quick update on my Bangkok Trip which was long overdue haha.. but i had lotsa fun and all.. I am amazed by my ability to be able to navigate places i want to go quickly.. it proved i wasnt that dumb after all.. but then it would be more fun if i go with frens or better still the guys.. if u noe what i mean hurk hurk... u cannot expect me to watch Thai girls opening bottles with their vaginas with my mum right? haha... it be so weird..

Sad to say i missed the infamous and much talked about Thai Girl show.. Sexual liberation is everywhere in their notorious nightlife district PatPong.. and i must say the girls there are so well blended with the lady boys.. aka.. Transsexuals. that i sometimes cant really differentiate alot of them apart..

Now i am really astounded by Singapore's ranking as no2 best nightlife in the world.. hmm... did i hear wrongly.. maybe its ranked no2 for being the Safest nightlife in the world instead...

I mean look at Thailand! the night life is so vibrant.. they have clubs for everyone.. from the more adrenaline pumping and alternative SM theme clubs to the common Stripper clubs.. everyone has a fair share regardless of gender..

But heres the Catch.. I think it is really not advisable to bring any guys with money there.. i can almost guarantee a ONS is already on the way with one of the cheap rates offered by the prostitutes scattered around.. Hmm i think even Condoms distribution cant help much in Thailand - The land of Aplenty. Sex really sells there and its so rampant, u will be spoilt for choices.. definitely hideous...

Other than that i have to say the food there is BAGUS! i mean due to my stupid mum who is so into Thai Food.. Esp TOM YUM GOONG.. Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner never fail to have her TOM YUM GOONG around.. haha... i had so much Tom Yum that i really got sick of Thai Food.. its like Tom Yum Goong is the only thing in the food menu.. ARg...

Anyway traveling has always been my fave hobby.. Who doesnt right? but then i really hope to travel to many countries.. like say Egypt or the Maldives.. hmm.. Europe is nice but not for single ppl.. Humpf. haha..Wth... anyways here are the pictures... hehe...

Benji signs off with love.. MUACKS..

2007-01-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

I am back! Made this new skin of my favourite eye dropping Alessandra Ambrosio.. look at those long alluring legs...

Anyway, though i am a bit late.. i have officially DIVORCED with Ms 2006 ( Cos she has been a bad girl ) and embrace Ms Sexy 2007 with open arms and lots of kisses! hehe..

O well during 2006, of course MANY THINGS have happened.. DUH.. but the more impt thing is to try to let go the bad things that are still lingering in our brains and tickle our brains a little to give space for newer and more beautiful memories...

But still i have to specially mention bout this BI-AtcH who had back stabbed me.. U thought that i would never find out.. U BURN BITCH COS I KNOW THE STORY.. nuff said.. if i were still in secondary sch.. She should start running and yes there will be blood.. jokin..

Let me share a story with u guys first which is really funny..

Story of the year

This girl lets call her Emily.. She had this huge crush on a cute guy who apparently too had a small crush on her.. and things were going really smoothly. One fine day, the guy invited her to his birthday party. And both of them became a team in one of the game named "Chicken Fight"..

The game is such that the girl would have to sit on the shoulder of another guy and push another girl off in the pool.. Emily who naturally teamed up with the guy got so excited and all.. could not wait to prove to the guy how good team mates they can be.. and in the midst of her excitement, the unthinkable happened....

SHE FARTED ON THE GUY lol! She was so embarrassed of the sound and all but could not seem to stop it.. and the guy had to throw her into the pool which she continued to fart. And true enough, the guy got so turned off, he was never invited to any of his parties ever.

MORAL OF THE STORY: DO NOT EVER get overly excited after consuming methane inducing food

LEts rewind and reminisce the Tammy porn video which my mum non chalently just saved the whole full version for me to watch.. wth.. Okay the point is.. I dont think she is shameless at all.. In fact if we think of how pathetic Singaporean's Sex Life is, we should feel ashame and be glad that she played a part to resuscitate Singapore's ranking to second last place...Hello! I donno bout other ppl, but i think she probably has the best Sex of her life.. while we are still thinkin along the line of Oh in OHIO.. hahha.. Talk bout Sexless in the city.. But of course the Bitch who circulated the vid should be burnt in oil la..

Then came the ppl who so called yearn for the same 'fame' as her. Initially i thought, thats going to be interesting.. But i had to say STOP... i am not being mean but seriously this girl who weighed 170 kg did the same video on a guy she had a crush on.. and ya he was CRUSHED. Girl, thats not the way to generate fame. I am not saying u cannot have sex. In fact u enjoy as much as possible. But the problem comes when reality meets sex vids.. Lets just say ppl prefer to see flesh and nudity but definitely not as much.

o well its getting late.. i shall update tomorrow. stay tune..

2006-11-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

Lets just say.. Double O Rawks my balls haha... I love the place.. great music.. super duper cheap drinks! all ma ladies, bottoms up! and oops i mean bottles up.. lol..woot.. place to get really drunk :)

and i so miss 1 Nite Stand club.. its so nice the live band and music.. gosh.. that makes me wonder what the fuck have i been doing at just mos and Zouk..for the past few months.. arg.. guess in time to come as i was discussing with Calyn, we are so going for wine tasting soon.. lol.. and by then i mean gosh i am so not into the young crowds anymore.. haha.. but i am definitely not one of those Sarong party boys or gals.. who speak almost as though their faces are filled with potatoes.. whatever.. never mind if those SPGs prefer Big things..

Calyn was like telling me how those SPG with those horrifying untouchable class accents fill the air with yet more SPGs joinin in.. i was like well.. since they prefer it big, one of the reason they talk like that is cos they get choked everytime ma.. and by then i mean u noe.. Choked by huge elongated things... haha.. enuff said..

Yesterday after clubbing, Calyn and i actually frankly open up our Sex files to discuss in graphic yet real stuffs bout fetishes, faking orgasms until like fuckin 6 in the morning...gosh... no wonder the sex industry so rampant.. lol

Recently i am filled with sexual innunedos.. not a good sign.. its like desperate house husbands Singapore version.. C was like telling me that girls in Singapore are intimidated in oral sex.. well according to statistics which can be bias but given singapore's so called conservative stand in oral sex.. 8/10 women are afraid of oral sex.. or find it disgusting.. and Calyn added that 10/10 men love oral sex cetris paribus regardless of race and sexuality haha.. i was like okay dont have to be so blatant..

i was like cmon girls, learn how to look at things in perspectives.. who says girls must turn into vacuum cleaners to clean up elongated bananas.. let me thus introduce u girls to the term cunnilingus.. and i dont mean it in a pejorative manner.. I mean.. be smart.. during foreplay.. be the rule setter.. and by that i mean "if u want me to blow u, how bout u go down on me first''.. i tell u.. many guys would kinda freak out a little cos we guys only know how to receive blow jobs, not actually giving one to a girl..so see girls, u turned the tables..

Anyway i am kinda late for my meeting already, Uncle agony here has many funny sex tales to tell.. and conclusion for today.. If u have bad timing, u r probably bad in giving shivering orgasms.. lol.. next up will be about funny fetishes i bet u guys have never heard before... wala

2006-11-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

Okay so heres a brief update since i managed to get 3 days mc on this fateful day which i am all too embarrassed to tell u guys how i actually manage to get that 3 days mc.

Theres a price to pay haha...

O well, to put it this way think in the line of STDs.. hahaha... and guys would get what i mean.. how malu.. and totally 'chua sai' situation..

And as usual the bitchy me almost insanely blurted out something rubbish when the medical officer asked if i have multiple sex partner... seriously i almost told him: " no i dont, but i have multiple orgasms!' for the fun of it...but then a sudden realisation came when i realised i should not talk to him like that ahaha like he is my friend.... lol

O well... let me just put aside this embarrassing situation today and update on the past few weeks... Firstly guys, YES I AM iN TEKONG, NO I AM NOT BOTAK... YET....

And so have been really busy and all meeting up with many ppl and updating as much as possible..Because i believe one needs to invest to make valuable friendships last... -hurk hurk- And as usual, have been clubbing and all.. and soon i will update on my halloween pictures as well as the pictures i took in various clubs...

I just wanna say, ppl i am still alive so no worries! just pretty exhausted.. and did i mention that i was excused like practically everything in Tekong.. Even Swimming... What the fuck... Wala for now.. More pics to update soon...

2006-09-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Tickets booked and yes i am off to Bangkok in less than 12 hours..

excited? definitely

Gosh.. i really need a respite.. and dearest Yang is probably at KL too as i am typing this.. Overseas week! Updates soon...

PS: Thanks everyone for their comments on my previous post.. O well what can i say? i am vogue's Spring/Summer erotica Collection hahaha.. And soon Me and YAng would be doing a SHOWDOWN.. winter versus Autumn collection of photos lol...

And o ya.. MOS SUCKS! YET AGAIN

I let u whip me if i misbehave... -cheeky mode- hehe

2006-09-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

So the weekend whizzes pass just like that.. and i have decided after much consideration to show my emotions through art..lol ... and so my dearest Yang gave this new look to me.. cos Art is to provoke and so here i am.. an exclusive never been seen Benji - daringly original..

hahha.. its like we have to like do these shots in like really fast..and i have to like hurry myself to remove the make up yikes.. i hate make ups but o well. thats so my last time i am doing this hhaha..

as u can see..my eyes are sad... a mixture of sadness and cheekiness.. so ya.. adventurous Benji did something crazy today lol...

2006-09-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

SOME GALS ARE JUST SO CUUTEEEe! WHEN THEY ARE........... DRUNK

well, yesterday was MAMBO at Zouk with Calynn, Teresa and Xuan De.. Music was nice and all..the usual upbeats and i esp like yesterday's Phuture's rendition of MILK SHAKE..damn nice and very upbeat lol.. something different...

I guessed i gave my personality shine all out yesterday lol... according to Xuan De.. he did not see before the other side of me hahaha...heh

The point of this entry is to tell ya all how cute this drunk gal was yesterday while me and Calynn were on our way home lol..

She came out of Zouk and was rather tipsy and all..then she suddenly was like 'left right left right left right', 'Berhenti! (stop)', 'gerblakan pu seng! (turn 180)'..

sounds familiar?

yeah these are the military commands... and she executed them with so much fun and zest that i couldnt stop laughing at how cute she looked... yes it came out from my mouth...then her army frens were like laughin and grabbing her while walking, makin her walk straight..

This is what i mean by real cute gals..not the thick make up, small eyes make big big kind... somemore her light make up like totally went off.. but she just simply looked au naturale and original... heh

Cute gal. o well.. hahaha..i am mad

2006-09-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

Yest finally got myself some space to catch a movie. And boy was it the most enjoyable movie experience since like donno when. As usual my R21 movie critic FZ was with me to catch the preview of this new korean romance titled: THE INTIMATE

A look at the ratings, the title and the poster would make ppl justify that it is yet another sex comedy or porn with story line. And so the expected crowd would be us and couples making out and ah peks in congregation. I was totally wrong.

This movie explores so deeply about human emotions, our ideals versus being practical. It is so sad watchin the show.. I must admit i was mesmerised by the actress who so happen according to FZ that i said was pretty from my very mouth other than Lauren Lee's erotism in LIE WITH ME.

O well, not that i want to base my life with movies, but the lead actress is the ideal gal if she ever exist to begin with haha.. As usual, both me and FZ was bitching b4 the show.. and to us.. we have criticised so many movies from the most sexual to the most violent, breasts, dicks or pussies are simply just another ornament of the human body to us.. Oh god, we are like how immuned. To us we would discuss which would be the better position for the gal or how which part is most erotic in the scene and what should the director add in the add in the sensualism in the characters. lol. we are simply gone case..

Thats not the point.

Although both of us have different viewpoints of the show, we totally and vehemently agreed that the sex scenes were damn hot.. its funny that we are actually discussing what we like bout the sex, bout the simplicity of it oozing erotism bla bla.. i totally have to agree with her. It was so sweet, so real.. You know how korean actors are that real bout acting.. It reached such a point whereby both of us question if they actually have real sex in the movie.. i mean it was so upclose, so raw, so real. Hmm..

Then she asked me why guys like to GO BEHIND gals.. Seriously, i have no idea man... hahah.. perhaps it shows more dominance? and the movie has proven that going behind a gal can really shut her up lol... i was like laughin like donno what la.. while she gave that 0_O.. haha..

Okay seriously, i shant go into details bout the show..but i really recommend this movie for this month.. WORTH YOUR MONEY. sad but great ending! haha

The main question is:

Will you give up your 7 years relationship for a fling that provided u with the most happiness and best sex for just one day?

tough question.

But both of us gave the same conclusion. Guys and gals would give different viewpoints. Why do i say that?

Well, i am pretty sure the gals would remember him as the guy who gave her the most pleasure and as that fling who gave her the best happiness but will ultimately marry the guy who gave her security.

For guys, they would go for the fling instead because its something refreshing and its always original to date someone more exciting.

The bottomline is.. i really want to know the extend of truth in this argument.

But for me, i would choose the person who gave me the most temporary pleasure. hmm.. guess i am a typical guy after all haha..

2006-08-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm... lets see.. This week is fuck up... I mean have been staying in camp for god who knows how many donkey years.. aye.. o well.. the thing is to smile ya? so yep here i am smiling to the computer screen in a totally spastic manner..

Friday was Fernie's Birthday .. had a blasting time with everyone @ DXO.. hahah.. we ended up bar top dancing like totally.. er.. fine.. i am just shameless...

This morning was quite fulfilling, given that i have not been running for ages.. i guess i was pretty proud of myself for clocking less than an hour for the 10km half marathon.. now my legs are like in a total agar agar state.. lol..

And i still think i look sexy in my super short shorts.. =p hahah

Before i end my boring week i just wanna say.. Things are becoming clearer now, i was being naive and being idealistic.. i should have seen it coming.. o well.. dont wannawaste my time anymore.. we'll see..

2006-08-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

CHAPTER 1: DEPRESSION

I cringed my ears, closed my eyes
The hurtful words from my parent
The backstabs from my aunt,
The complains from my grandma
I cried.

I felt really stressed.
Not just them, my work too.
Mum regretted having me in her life
Father chose to buy another shaver
because he thought i would give him Aids

Not that they know anything,
they just went on throughout
I woke up.
And there were those words again
i cried to myself on my bed.

The past suddenly dawned upon me
i could sense the impending disaster.
I dont want to be back.

And all i need is u to tell me its alright
but it will never happen
not now, not soon, not ever.

2006-08-19T12:36:00.000+08:00

Mambo on Wed.. and Thurs have work like totally kill me... and so here are the pics..

and yes we sure had a great time! Ghostbusters! lol...

2006-08-08T18:02:00.000+08:00

BIMBO OF THE YEAR: MUMMY

Mum: Ben ah where u going tonight?
Me (bathing): Er Esplanade?
Mum: o for?
Me: To watch fireworks.. Singapore Fireworks Festival
Mum: Wha how come i dont know (mused)
Mum: is it free of charge?

----------Simultaneously, i dropped my toothbrush in disbelief-------------------

Mum (continued): Free not?

----Bimbotic level hit to the brim, I can just stuff my head into the toilet bowl------

Me (snapped) : NO U HAVE TO PURCHASE AIR SPACE...

Whatever la... like totally legally blonde in the makin...lol

Anywayz... finally after so many months, ME and dearest FZ took our first neoprint together hahaha.. and she scared she will look awful.. Well like i always say. the issue is never the camera, its the subjects lol..

she is so gonna slap me..fine..the subject is me.. hhaha..

=P

2006-08-05T13:27:00.000+08:00

ORIGINAL SINS

yesterday was so sinful.. Met up with Fernie at this pub in Tanjong Pagar.. so we were chatting while she was in quite a drunk state.. then there came the sounds of Shakira, all the nice songs from this paticular club..So we decided to go in to have a look..

There she was, a young gal -oozing all the sexiness - pole dancing on the bar top. She was gyrating in such a manner that she is constantly challenging the known club rule around Singapore of stripping..And there she was doing her booty shake and sexy dance moves while chee ko peks ( including us ) looked intently of what she is going to deliver next.

And so she took off her top.. She is now in bikini.. then she teased the audience with glimpses of her g string.. And there goes the siren in everyone's head.. but then it was a sin that eveyryone of us secretly enjoyed.. lol

Fernie and I just blasted out the club with total laughter, because both of us thought she was really hot hahha.... O well..quite an experience for both of us..

AFter which headed down to why not.. a 180 degrees change of environment.. going different clubs just makes the night more interesting...hehhe

Conclusion: The Thai and Filipino gals really know the rules of flirting. Daring, sexy and naughty lol...

2006-07-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

Chapter 1: SEX, LOUD MUSIC, ALCOHOL, DRUGS

The past few days of havoc, a myriad of booze oozing down my body. The inseparable combination of sex, music and alcohol filled the every brim of the clubs. The rich, the wannabes and the o-so-whoreys.. The stares, the fights, the indirect need to showcase one's coolness, the need to prove one's wealth - The cool, the gorgeous, the not so gorgeous, the sluts, all weaved into a total pandemonium of loudness, of hypocrisy.

Chapter 2: Gals that need several cocks in their mouth

DXO was crowded, the music was alright, sweat was inevitable, but most are not so hot. And there goes the bimbos, flirting with the guys with the correct pick up lines. They smile, they shriek, they smile again, and their voices went higher, sharper. They laugh now. Shrieking is like the only thing in the three gal's itinery for the night. You wonder.. if you are in a club themed BIRD PARK.

The gals were fighting through their eyes, knowing that someone has to fuck off, and someone would get the guy. Then the time comes, near the end, where the white light shone bright.

The guy left, the three gals wondered.

TRUTH: MAke up can only protect u through several lights.
DENIAL: They still think they are hot, cute and bubbly

O well, the gals will be back in the vicious cycle, and all goes on repeat mode for the next few clubbing experiences. Good luck for them, they should just embrace each other and hope for the best.

To be continued..

2006-07-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

Gosh, and so little Ben got his off on Thurs... which means....

MAMBO NITE lol..

feeling extremely excited haha

2006-07-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm..just came back from my movie date with FZ.. Basic Instinct 2.. Well i must admit i watch the show because of my obsession with such a ravishing lady - Sharon Stone.. Yes i know she is like 48 .. and so?

Her body can just easily kill off many young girls.. o Dear, i really love older women.. looking at their Derriere, that nice contours, boob arcs.. simply a goddess. thats what a real woman is.. Inside she was sultry, full of elan and sexy.. woot..

It seems like nowadays the so called R21 ratings is redundant already.. lol.. The next R21 movie i am going to catch is the Monica Belluci's Why do you not love me?

To be honest, i have no idea what are the guidelines for Singapore's censorship board.. There are so many contradictions.. We are legal to have sex at like 18 and yet we cannot view explicit sexual contents unless we are 21? what the fuck logic is that? Not that this rating will deter the young from viewing them.. like hello. Limewire.. kazaa.. bit-torrent...

Basic Instinct for examply should only be like M18 lo... okay lets see...there are innuendos of finger fuckin, slight glimpse of orgies, Sharon's boobies bla bla... whats so explicit? okay maybe i am bias given that i have seen so many R21 movies.. but hello like compare Lie With Me.. that movie is the only one movie to be given the R21 rating.. ppl do watch it if you have the chance.. the Erotism inside is exceptional... The most sensual movie experience eVA! haha...

These are just my own opinions..but then being a movie fanatic.. please dont deprive us of our rights to view.. i mean its my choice afterall right? alright... now have to pack up for my camp... laters...

2006-07-13T15:32:00.000+08:00

Okay i simply love Sharon Stone's view of sex.. she is provocative, never shy and smart.. haha.. cos i am in the rush to watch Basic instinct 2 now..which the reviews are so bad..but what the hell.. haha.. just wanna share what she quoted.. like whoa... love her!~

Sharon Stone: "I am not in of the school that you should be so panicky bout sex. You look around at women's dresses that are so low cut, and you see acres of boobies. Thats okay somehow and yet if you see a quarter an inch of the brown part, why suddenly is the reason for scandal?"

She has a point there eh? not morally right but logically right.. lol.. anywayz shall blog later bout Censorships in Singapore... wee..

2006-07-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

This weekend was a blast... okay like excluding the terrible Sat's NDP... like seriously some ppl from the SAF really have the worst character yet.. hint: some Captain.. but as usual i give that whatever look.. and blowing 2000 fuckin balloons for that stupid 'let all the balloons fly' effect is NOT FUNNY at all.. and obviously thats not the type of BLOW JOB i was expecting lol.. lucky there is the invention of helium tanks.. otherwise.. bye bye MR lungs..

But i must admit playing with helium gas is simply hilarious.. with the altering of your sound chords makin u sound so disgustingly chipmunk..

Fast forward that pathetic NDP.. i had to rush to Gallery Hotel which btw was a really nice place to sleep after clubbing with Benji, Annavil, Jovan and Yang haha.. the toilet was like whoa.. its just so sexy for couples to stay.. and the swimming pool with that trasparent glass walls which directly provide a ravishing vantage point of the entire MS road was simply magnificent..

Had so much fun clubbing and all.. but i wasnt that tired at all... great stamina yeah.. haha... and the next day met up with Vincent to watch Thank you for smoking..which btw was a great movie.. an intellectual one i would say, displaying various ways to debate your way to make your stand substatiated.. looking at how the persona fight his way through to advocate smoking and all was simply hilarious..

And just not long ago..went to like ZOO with FZ my lover lol.. she is so going to faint.. well.. both of us had fun re-igniting our childhood days of feeling over excited and all at the sight of fascinating creatures of mother Earth.. and she saidi look like baboon? which i totally told her she look like Flamingo the water ballerina hahaha... and stubborn her insist that she is not afraid of getting in touch with nature.. which i am totally sure she is afraid..but well she is as stubborn as ever but thats what make her character strong... love her to bits for staying that stubborn lol..

And being a total bitch bout the usual feminist remarks bout men being beasts and that women rules big time kind of theory.. i totally snap her with this signboard which explained that in this country, this stupid looking bird is worth 8 pigs or 1 WOMAN.. can u imagine how her face totally change and all.. fuckin hilarious.. relax la girl.. i am sure u are worth more than 8 pigs..maybe 9? haha

Okay anywayz...had fun fun fun so nothing to complain.but to go back to camp tomorrow.. great!

2006-07-06T00:45:00.000+08:00

I am so proud of myself and let me present the final design for my first T shirt .. Loud, proud, shameless, whatever.. cos its my pride! hahah..sounded so damn gay.. since nowadays t shirts outside dont seem to appeal to me.. so may as well make one myself .. so here goes!

2006-07-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

GALS!

TO THOSE WHO WISHED TO GET MARRIED...

JOIN THE ARMY AND U MAY HAVE TO THINK THRICE lol..

2006-06-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

OMFG.. i have totally neglected my blog for like god knows how long... o dear how should i start.. so many things have happened during my MIA period in cyber space..

okay to all my frens out there who know the extent of my passion with movies, i am currently designing a new webbie on the upcoming movie reviews.. i am excited bout it haha...this week caught like freaking lots of movies as usual..

Okay backtrack a lil... O yes o yes.. the Wedding dinner with my mum's frens.. and yes i am inspired to get married and all.. considering the bathtub faces esplanade and the sea?! uh huh..like wtf.. with rose petals embellishing the bathroom...goodness.. i wonder how NOT any couple can NOT MAKE LOVE there.. like come on... feel free to PILLAGE..lol

Then there were all the clubbing nites.. and i did a really sweet birthday present for my dearest Ms Leong.. simple, exclusive and original..i swear i have created a global warming phenomenon, melting her right there haha.. but then it was all worth it after all although it took me whole night to come out with the pressie.. =p

okay fine..too much of yada yada.. as usual let Benji bring different perspectives to your life.. and FYI all my posts are MY OPINION and pure entertainment.. i mean life's getting boring aint it?

alright, so there are several points today that can just make everyone enjoy the art of fainting..

Was with Yang the other day and i just popped a question on the reason why many ppl break up so fast after a night of wild sex..

well, if we want to delude ourselves, we would say because the person have explored everything about you and that the mysterious factor is not there anymore..

But i choose to differ..

I mean, considering that when ppl have sex, make up do smudge right? maybe we should blame ourselves for not trying to look better or at least maintain that look while rocking in pleasure? i mean if your eyes needs fake eyelashes and mascara, you can remove the make up but do top up with maybe Chanel slut specs..or Dior Sunglasses..

i find it especially true to those gals who simply sponge the thick foundation on the face like as if they are competing to build the next best pyramid.. neglecting the fact that they are actually part of the cast of Memoirs of Geisha .. putting out that facade for their boyfrens every date.. so when the time comes to make love, they tend to forget how they look and ASSUME their boyfrens will accept them for who they are simply because the bfs are going to make love to them and so he loves her very much...

I say try harder.. and here comes a 20 tonne iron smack to make sure you wake up..

Look gals, to most guys.. sex DOES NOT MEAN he LOVES you.. it can mean alot of things considering how much guys can segregate love from lust as being proven by the number of chee ko peks going to Prostitutes centres and still able to buy flowers for their wives possibly from the extra cash he has because the prostitute offers a cheaper price lol..or and did i not mention the number of ESMPs around... aka.. EXTRA SERVICE MASSAGE PARLOURS..

ESMP

speaking of Extra Services, my parents have since quarrelled over the fact that my father's fren went to try out the 'service' at this ESMP near my father's shop... My father simply say many guys are like that what... which my irate mum choose to rebutt back..

Like i give a damn.. i mean i did experience before this gal who massaged me before whom i suspect there is something wrong with her.. considering how many masseurs actually massages your back until your thigh area.. Well apparently yest i saw the papers and she was being murdered.. geez.. so scary..

On a more serious tone, i did come across this article bout the ppl working in such massage parlours.. i was pretty touched by this China mother who told the reporters bout her story, she broke down and in a melancholic tone said that she did this all for her son who needs to study and that she hope her son will grow up to understand that.. She also commented that she is aware of ppl looking at her differently and all..

I can totally comprehend how she felt because i witness before some stuffs that happened which i am not comfortable to say too much..but well.. i guess everyone has their own way of doing things which one thinks is the best.. I mean, i would not judge her just like that..in fact, i would love to listen to her and let her explain.. i felt so sorry for her though.. =)

ENTRAPMENT

and so what's the buzz about the gay doctor who was entrapped by two police officers for wild threesome with drugs and was sentenced to jail.. in my opinion.. i really think the law should revise the issue on entrapment.. yes he possesses drugs..but luring someone to have sex and apprehending him is simply too unfair.. i mean we cannot just simply blame the doctor for engaging in such lewd acts.. have we taken into account the police's extent of giving the temptations just to arrest him?

its like telling some random person that you love him/her and wants to be with him/her but in actual fact you are just trying to play a dare on the person.. or see how he/she reacts.. -rolls eyes-

Anywayz. blog again.. have a great day tomorrow ppl!

2006-06-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

Alas.... THE HORROR! THE HORRRROR!

I began to witness the beginning of the end... This weekend just crashed upon itself.. Lost my ipod baby... Down with sore throat and high fever on a Sat.. yahOO!! like whats next?

Witnessing a bloody dog shit right in front of me like as if i was the judge to judge its SHIT @ PEt SAFARI..

And in a few hours time, back to camp... and yes i am entitled to BE GRUMPY!! gRRR

- bitch mode level 1 -

To the person who stole my ipod.. BEWARE DONT LET ME FUCKIN CATCH U.. YOU BE IN THE CAST OF SAW AND HOSTEL I TELL U.. O YES YOU SHOULD RUN.. THERE WILL BE BLOOD!

Choice of weapon: Harpoon and Pen Knife

Death Method: Open your bloody eyes and see as i poke your dick with harpoon endlessly. I will slice off your blardy face like how NTUC slices the hams... grr

-bitch mode off-

AND I AM SERIOUS! I DONT CARE I AM A SERIAL KILLER!!!

2006-05-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

The Art Of The Triangle

I read up about this triangle rule which was rather interesting and i thought i should share with everyone. The rule applies to anything from purchasing ur Chanel or Gucci products to Relationships.. haha.. well it goes like that..

The trick is this.. lets take a more interesting approach say finding a relationship.

Note that the following context for cheap means "lesser money for investing in the relationship"

You can have a fast and good relationship, but the gal/boy dont come cheap

You can have a good and cheap relationship, but you will continue to wait.. it aint gonna be that quickly that you will find one.

You can have a fast and cheap relationship, but it wont be a good one a.k.a Bang Wham Thank you Madam. lol

I know this is so random..but i find it rather true. And to end this entry, i shall quote as thy Keith "Good boys go heaven but Naughty boys go under" and "May i have your attention pls, but sorry you see i am already in 'Attention' "

like totally slutforce.com lol.. niteZ

2006-05-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

I WANT A GIRLFREN BUT I NEED A BOYFREN

Okay this is not exactly an attention seeking kind of statement that i want to impose but rather it portrays the paradox of my life right now.. like whats new? Apparently someone suggested that i should just make my own tshirt with the tagline " I love my galfren but i want your boyfren. Move BITCH!" lol.. If i ever, like ever wear this t shirt.. i probably gotten thousands of wtf stares..

Listen. Apart from the bottomline that i do not actually know what i want in my love life (note the operational word being listen ), i am pretty much fucked in all different dimensions. Is it because i have high expectations in a relationship? but like HELLO.. who the hell am i to expect so much.. -SLAPS MYSELF-

AND FYI.. it has nothing to do with any GENITALIAS.. Some ppl just give me that.. "Oh, so he is gay and a cocksucker.." like come on..

Anyways yest went to like Coco Latte? somemore some sort of underage party? think Fernie got a little pissed with some things.. hmm.. but i figured what she was pissed with..haha... Chill girl! you are the MAN! Apparently i found Fernie a perfect representation of Amanda Bynes in SHES THE MAN..

Back to the topic.. Look, i am not trying to be provincial or something but maybe i should just really forget about liking anyone anymore for a period of time. let alone talk about Loving someone..those words just seem too strong for me.. Maybe i aint a commitment kinda guy... hmm.. well i have done some evaluation of myself for like how many times.. and i finally agreed to myself that

"BENJI IS A DICKHEAD" why? because his balls are negligible when comes to love... like where is the confidence? only know how to bitch and never get serious.. like what fernie would say.. "Guys have two heads and obviously you use the wrong one" LOL.. she is so full of shit.. but i still love her anyway..

Yes i know i yak too much on love already.. but i cant help it.. everything seems to fail..its ominous..Tomorrow's my practical test..and i am so gonna fail.. and Keith is so gonna have one out of the many BIMBOTIC moments...haha..

Okay this post is just a no link and random stuffs to express my thoughts ahem... maybe i should be like SATC.. "What the hell, just PILLAGE her/him!" lol.. dont cha think that by replacing "Fuck" to "Pillage" sounds so much more refreshing? i think i am going crazy.. must be the medication.. i better run off before i go cuckoo..

2006-05-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

The already long lost Benji's spirit is back! and there goes my book out on wed followed by a night in zouk/Phuture wif the three gorgeous ladies... Pam, Shaina and Sheila -woot- All ready to look ravishing and vowed to bring down the dance floor...

As crazy as it sounded, i thought yest was like sat? where i almost forgot that i gotta book in early this morning .. o great... but surprisingly today at camp i did not feel shagged... in fact full of zest.. and followed by watching X Men in SAF SMART 4.. HOW ORIGINAL! lol

Yest was the funniest although not exactly a great night... Good aircon and we had a good night haha..thats what Pam ranted sarcastically... Well.. apparently the gals were supposed to like hit on cute guys that night but something seemed wrong..

It was kinda like a gay night at Phuture... according to Shaina which totally turned the gals off.. not that they dont like the cute guys in the club but because they just gotta have to get some HP NOs.. and so the funny part came when this two guys unknowingly joined us... And Pam and Sheila found one of them pretty cute.

And so Sheila went to asked him in the form of writing down as SMS due to the overpowering music... she was like "are u from ---- camp? can i have ur no?"

Guess what.. the guy just put his hp back to his pocket.. which left Sheila in total horror..she was like.. "did u see what i wrote in the end?"

He was like "o ya u want my number right?"

AND THEN HE TOTALLY LEFT PAM AND SHEILA SPEECHLESS WHICH MADE ME BURST OUT IN LAUGHTER.. I mean he was quite original actually.. he actually gave a totally unexpected reply..

" o i change my hp no frequently"

LOL

I tell u both gals were totally taken aback and mortified but cant help it.. he is a really nice person before that haha.. being gentleman and bla bla...

And so it is they could not believe that they got rejected which they vehemently suspected that he is gay...

So after we left the club... Pam and Sheila messaged the other guy some stuffs...and guess what he replied? it was fuckin funny..concise and short..

"eh help me say goodbye to Benji!" hahahah

It was a total unexpected kind of night... which left PAm whining throughout the whole car ride back.. but then she got utterly desperate and waved to this unknown cute guy from the other car.. PEng!

Anyway, i am really gonna be zonked out soon...gotta catch some sleep...and just now Keith was like totally bimbotic and all with his slutty antics... think Zen and I were like astounded by his Slutiness which he proudly annouced he graduated with First class Honours in Sociology and Slutification.. and he was like.. I WANNA BE A SOCIOLOGIST AND PLS WORSHIP ME.. PENG! lol.. and i tell u no gals can fight his slutiness... all will lose to him hands down.. yest he was like delibrately dropping the pen in front of me and bent down in a sexually explicit way while saying sorry.i tell u i can just faint.. so does Colin, Shawn, Ivan...

What a week..update again..gonna go Sembawang camp tomorrow hehe...

update again.. =)

2006-05-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

o have been pretty busy the past few days... also have been watching THE L WORD.. it was exceptionally captivating and provocative... And i feel so lesbian.. like tell me about it! haha

O here's some pic of my fave les character - MARINA.. if only she is real.. woot! A sophisticated European with a sexy accent. faints and of course the fave ANDRO Shane.. o gosh.. actually i kinda like Alice the bisexual haha..she is so funny having to date a guy who loves to use a dildo instead of his dick..faints.. And i didnt noe there is a new informal term to describe woman who was once a les.. HASBIAN..haha

the pic says it all..Tim and Jenny were a couple until Marina came in..hehe

Now thats the reason any gals can fall in love with her..like come on..haha

And Keith gave me a new name like diaoz... BENGINA..fuck up haha...

And he is going to name his future daughter JENNYTALIA lol...like wtf! and his fave phrase 'rolls eyes in contention'

2006-05-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

Due to the whole hoo ha of the lovely gay couple Kero and Colin, i decided to check them out to see whats the whole fuzz about... I was appalled

Astonished not by the fact that their tags are non stop and the amount of readers seemingly so rampant, but totally bemused by the fact that there are so many ignorant people around.. Its just so disgusting and gross...

Okay forget about the days where we still argue about gays, lesbians and transexuals being abnormal, disgusting, morally incorrect bla bla.. Well.. like it or not, they are everywhere, whether in town or in Science centre...

But being so ignorant as proven by all the tags can be both disturbing and disappointing... How could anyone just tag something like "god do not create adam and steve instead of adam and eve" .. O gosh.. how appalling can all get.. i mean please dont get the religion thing going on with ur pointless and speechless comments just because of the assumption of what is supposedly taught to ya of what is normal and whats not... please at least register a lil of ur brain cells, just a lil and think think think before making any sensational remarks and following blindly to ur faiths...

I mean many people are really shallow.. i saw this other gay couple blog but they arent so cute, therefore the comments unlike the earlier ones, have totally turned into great deal of angst, livid reactions and crude rebuttals.. how practical can some people be....

Is humanity as a whole really facing a phase of self degradation? Its humiliating but at the same time worrying in time to come..

Enough said....

Its just a random thought... Its worthy to mention how the notion of pure love has evolved and moulded differently from the implications of the revolutionary world right now... Is love just another shrewed disguise of lust?

Whether gay or straight, i believe like me, we have judged people too fast too soon without even seriously looking deeper... I believe we become judgemental not because we want to, but because we are pacing with the materialistic world with the fear of being judged..

2006-05-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

Nope not here to rant on all the small stuffs that somehow seems very big due to my bitchin skills...

Well, i received NUS reply for my interview..but there is one big prob.. i dont have a bloody portfolio... like what am i supposed to put inside given my limited exposures since JC .. I have decided that i would just use my elan and charm to meet the judges and hope for the best.. haha what a himbotic approach.. like everyone would say.. Himbotic? where are the looks to begin with?

I AM FULLY AWARE THANK YOU lol... Seriously, bring all the questions.. shoot it out.. i aint scared.. i just have some prob with the writing part.. cause i have the tendency to get too carried away..

AND I AM STILL WAITING FOR SMU... please let me get into my desired course!!! haiz.. so depressing...

OKay interesting things to ponder... have u ever noticed that on the expressway.. no matter what traffic jam it is... ur car will still seem to be at the slowest lane no matter how many times to swerve... haha.. thats what i notice today..

O shucks... its late...gotta book in tomorrow..work work work...

LAST WORDS:

Dont be sad over the melancholy things in life because there will be many. Instead celebrate moments where u feel happy because they are rare.

2006-04-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

Twink! haha according to Yang...

very twinky meh...haha..what a word..

-okay just 5 seconds of being EMO-

为什么爱上你的人是我?
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过?
为什么对你舍不的人是我?
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记

2006-04-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

The greatest century of joke - F Z LITERALLY FLEW IN THE BUS!

if only i could re enact the whole bloody situation, u would have thought she was a windmill.. gosh.. that is so not glam AT ALL.. and let me see, she was on her knees at 4am? just because she told me that i cannot know some stuffs but others can know, which i totally snap her with ' Why? cos u had a dick? '

Anywayz.. June is another ultimate BitCh.. I shant elaborate more... 'congrats' for her in her FUTURE ENDEAVOURS IN SMU haha.. Pui!

O wells.. Thursday went to watch Kumar Show wif Ryan and Angie.. he is de best drag queen/diva/on-ur-face-comedian.. I so need that laughter for ages pls...

-blushes-

er thats how far my phone quality is..PATHETIC...

I am so bloody pissed wif June.. WHo the hell have i got to fuck to get into SMU?! haha thats was my reaction at Tam just now wif June which left June laughin in total disgust..

My life is really FUCKED UP... as in i dont really know what i want hence the label lets see.. 'TRISEXUAL'..

Somehow everyone misses school, because theoretically speaking thats when all the juicy rumours start - bout who fuck who, whose nipples are green (jokin)? - but now everything is which coy ur from, which unit ya from, hows life.. bla bla..

As i am described as Samantha in Sex and The City, maybe i should indeed distribute my own set of home made porn XXX edition.. At least its me myself who distribute it... i will shoot to fame in no seconds i tell u...as long as i know who to land the vids to.. haha.. No, i should start off distributing black and white versions, then slowly in full blast Dholby surround billion coloured version..

Jokes aside, i am currently addicted to GAry (Cao Ge) new song - chen mo wan ju.. i tell u this song is really use acidified arrows to thrust through ur bloody heart...and when u feel so sad, it still wont let u go with the chorus.. like making sure u drain out ur tear ducts and go for vasectomy.. lol... Go listen ppl!

Aye.. time to go.. today is not a very good day for some stupid reason.. ya noe.. i am just a paranoid eccentric bitch.. laters... haha

2006-04-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

I was perusing through some crappy webbies in a mind to at least make me smile.. and came across this really corny yet funny webbie that measures your worth as a commodity.. Guess what.. i am only worth..

US$1,600,000!

and so i tweak a lil on the questions ask..apparently if u r a gal, u r worth 20000 more.. and if your name is not common like Benjamin, u can guarantee more money... Oh no.. i am so damn cheap haha as compared to the rest of the world?! So if i am caught as sex slave, i should tell myself... U R CHEAP!

Was reading yest's NEW PAPER on more wives cheating their husbands... I wasnt astonished.. i mean its actually part of evolution and globalisation right? in fact it is something exciting to me that women are finally able to think that they in fact can cheat too! lol... not bad ah...it is not easy to separate sex from love pls.. which apparently statistically lots of men can...

O well harsh reality but getting interesting.. whats next? Women raping men...haha... something to look forward to.. otherwise it be so boring...o wells gotta go again!! laters...

2006-04-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

Life has been rather fascinating every weekend. Its like time has become so precious and significant for me and i have definitely learnt ..like ABSOLUTELY how to manage time effectively.

O dear, many ppl have commented that i have become really thin.. Okay i know i am not supposed to rant bout being thin considering how many ppl try to be less full figured.. haha.. chez... what should i do man? decisions decisions

Yesterday Sonia and I met an ultimate MAle bitch and we both lost to him hands down lol.... He was like saying to Sonia that if he hadnt known she is a girl, he would not have known she had a vagina! lol.. like what the hell... supposedly funny but really blunt eh... This guy is really sharp in his words.. quite interesting actually.. got one point i almost laughed till i lao sai pls..

He was like "that girl is like so fuckin fat, i hate her. She should just wear a short skirt and er... hope for the best!"

HOPE FOR THE BEST.. he was really like right on your face kind! goodness...

Anywayz.. few more minutes to go back to the ARMY BROTHEL... low paid prostitutes to be exact.. Scandals and more scandals every week.. is it ever gonna stop!?

Is it really worth it to commit suicide over the size of your dick? its kinda depressing to know that some guy really did. I think he was in great depression.. So sad.. i wonder how his parents and gf is coping with this sudden crash of reality. Devastating indeed..

I got so much to update but i really have to go! update again!

2006-04-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

Scandals after scandals, getting totally out of hand... Thats Benji for everyone..

He is completely shrouded by uncertainties,
constantly falling into this pithole,
waiting to find someone to catch him,
yet all he realised was, there was no one to catch him
only to be disappeared into this bottomless pit.

A simple entry to sum up a simple conclusion of a intricatingly flailing boy named Benji....

2006-02-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Shites.. been MIA-ing for a while, possibly due to the tremendous amount of stress i have been experiencing for the past few weeks in army. Dont get me wrong, army aint that tough.. its just so fuckin boring and brainless that i just felt so stifled. And i finally experienced the feeling of being helpless just because u have no more rights.

But not to say i would not be able to surmount all that is happening in the months to go.

Well..forward all the army rantings.. i mean i have learnt to just live on and stop makin a bitch out of fuck up army.

Well.. things have been happening.. well in fact bad things i would say. Well, remember about my long term neck and shoulder pain that i had for the past two years? i did a deep scan and guess what..

Two degenerating slip discs on my neck. Wow.. considering the permanant damage i have to face all my life.. which stupid bitchy Summer said i would have a totally disastrous sex life in time to come..considering i am only left with like only half of the Karma Sutra left fit for me to explore lol... SUMMER FOR YOUR INFO I AM STILL ENTITLED TO CUM! pardon my language.. both of us always quarrel but thats just part of life.

No more Helicopter or spread eagles, just missionary and scissors haha... if u noe what i talking bout.. Well my argument is.. u still can make love with different positions.. and if copulation seems difficult to achieve.. intense foreplay can also be substituted thank you.. ^_^

Well.. two more days to A levels.. come feel all the palpitations -thump thump-. Hopefully i be able to pursue my degree for Communications marketing...

Another thing is, recently i got really interested in law.. And so i have been reading up on laws in Singapore.. Somehow i felt that laws are rather interesting considering the fact that there is really alot of arguments u can generate. Isnt it amazing that the defendent and respondent can take months just to justify a charge that is simply one long sentence under the book of law.

Okay, i am not trying to be sophisticated or what but it occured to me alot about protectionalism in laws. There is such a thin line to win a case. Lets say one got beaten up by some stranger. You sue the person. Because the law does not vividly state the nature of the beatings, the charge in assault can actually be largely minimised if the person being charged has sufficient evidence to prove the violence is justificable.

Say the person fought back. Would it then be justificable that it was just an act of violence in a situation of unclarity of the mind after being beaten and that he should not be charged? Violence to resolve violence therefore can be really profound when being contested, simply because there are many conflicting perspectives u can look at.

Divorce is more interesting. U cannot actually file for a divorce if the divorce is not seen as irretrievable. In fact if u really want a divorce without asking for the respondent to sign the papers, the thing is to make sure u pack ur stuffs and leave the house and stay over at someone's house for at least 4 years. At the meantime u can fight for custody, maintanence fees. Chances that u will win divorce is very much higher. Because the law states that if you can prove that you are not staying with your spouse for at least 4 years, respondent consent for the divorce can be overruled.

Rape can be quite shocking too. Cause the law only states that a man who by force perform intercourse to an unwilling woman would be considered rape. Which means, a guy that is raped by another guy can only sulk and live on..lol.. Many laws need to be revised i felt.. Thats just a personal opinion la..

Oops i think i have carried away.. well..time to go back camp.. Will update again.. Ciaoz

2006-01-06T19:54:00.000+08:00

Toot toot toot! Attention!

This will be my very last post for the moment. Booking in tomorrow! reminiscing how i used to ignore this word Army while i was having fun..and wala.. De day has arrived!

Everything is like last supper, last dinner, last lunch..and including my ultimate - last hair drop! lol.. I am not afraid of the tough trainings and all in Army.. i just cannot get over my hair! haha.. until i mustered enough courage and reluctantly told the barber to TOTALLY SEVER TIES WIF MY HAIR! kaChing!

And he did.. mercilessly and not even a sense of sympathy.. shaving down slowly with a certain smirk on his face so irritating that i wanna just rip off his face... i was joking but ya.. i was pretty upset u see.. But what the hell.. I have gotten over it.. and Enough rantings!

Phew!

Its like this holocaust.. a MAJOR MESSACRE! and i have lived... lol.. its alright.. i am less upset now.. but rather cant wait to book in to see whats installed for me.. yes its sad and i have to leave all my frens for a moment.. wait.. for a long moment.. but i mean, there is no ESCAPE! so ya..live it, embrace it, smooch it or whatever!

My only detachments are my frens and families but many ppl face a more worrying thing - NS BREAK UP SYNDROME.. not that i am here to be cynical..but ya.. good luck to everyone who is having relationships..

According to Summer, Army test the faithful level of the girls.. a different perspective perhaps..but i do agree... Many gals always blame guys beeing unfaithful.. but after hearing so many stories of breakups BY GALS after army just makes everything seems so contradicting..

Its okay to be a feminist..but some gals just want the best of both worlds and donno when to shut the fuck up according to Carrie from Sex and the City...

fancy wanting equality in many things yet wanting guys to pay this pay that..be gentleman.. bla bla.. i am just stating.. but ya many a times i do agree guys just cant keep his penis to himself.. so ya.. its all in the human behaviour more than that segregation of gender differences.. Okay what crap am i talking.. haha...

But the thing is.. i wish all the couples around me to stay as long as possible ( Although i pretty much want to throw concentrated acid on so many coupls lol jk..).. if there is no compromise, there is no love and stop saying u love someone with such easy words, prove it..

As for pathetic me with absolutely no love life and getting jealous as always.. lol.. have to just hug the mirror goodbye.. for its a new journey waiting for me to embrace with open arms.. Cheers people.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-01-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

This probably be one of my final updates before i serve the army lol..

How fast time flies... and i am now left wif what? 5 days? to army... yearning to go in yet unwilling... okay i am full of contradictions..

Anywayz 2005 has whizzed pass like just yesterday.. let us welcome a brand new -gonna be awesome- 2006!

No worries, wont go into details of chunks and chunks of reflections and have a new year resolution like fuckin world peace.. _l_

these few days witnessed alot of unpleasant stuffs... On a down note, i already sensed a growing distance of some of my frens.. not that they are not nice or what.. but i already can feel the growing gap, some pursuing a new and different lives, others still searching, its all in the growing up chapters.. donno if its right for me to feel unwilling for these changes but ya.. i am also growing from it..

I HAVE ALSO REALISED SOME TYPE OF PPL THAT I AM REALLY IRRITATED WIF.. shant elaborate much.. Disappointing but true..

Recently caught up wif many frens too.. thats on a more positive note.. especially my rendezvous moment @ ONE NITE STAND wif SONYA.. o m G! i seriously hate to trust my love instincts..why cant myself fall in love wif a NORMAL PERSON.. latest updates is atrocious! its not A GUY BTW... before everyone starts justifying its yet another guy haha.. and yes 2006 or 2100 still wont change the fact i am still stuck between straight, Bi, Gay.. lol..

One of my frens is so so bad..she was like..i feel like just hiring someone and sodomize u once and for all and u can just fuckin shut up bout ur sexual orientation lol.. I was speechless.. i just feel like sewing her pussy arg...

And Zouk, i think u can fuckin close down soon... the standard of Mambo has dropped drastically.. Ppl are fleeing to MOS and i am now gonna reach 19 soon.. Another phase, another level of life..

Maybe fine Dining? haha or high End clubs? will i become one that prefer not to go out anymore like i used to be?

Pls remember the Benji before Army.. he may not be the nicest of frens but can be addictive in small doses k lol...cos u never noe.. stories of how ppl change after army and stuffs.. Dont think will change for the worse la ah! haha i am still nice okay.. Bleahz..

2005-12-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

Woke up really late today during Christmas.. Merry Christmas?

Nah.. Not at all in the mood for Christmas.. the ambience just isnt there.. to me its just another day..But nevertheless.. Christmas Eve was spent wif just me and my only bestie darling wadever.. hehe.. Just the two of us... talking bout secrets that only both of us share..lol... eating up lots of food and stuffs..

Is it just me? Somehow Christmas in Orchard seems so degrading.. i mean.. loads and loads of Ah Bengs and Lians that are just so acting fooling around, fighting, shooting cheebyes and lan jiaos across streets.. I wonder whats the image are they trying to portray?

Dont get me wrong, i totally respect the beng lian huays culture.. but many so called 'ah bengs and lians' are just so fake..as if everything is so contrived.. from what i see yesterday.. O yes.. and racism seems to be an indirect issue yesterday whereby i actually witnessed so many grps of ppl only targeting on the Indians.. and yet the Indians thought its just festive season, its alright to be sprayed wif colourful ribbons and foams of different flavours..

I wonder about the whole mayhem going on... Christmas? or simply just 'An eye for an eye season'? i really do feel sorry for those who did get discriminated... its something we should reflect upon.. the basis of humanity...

Anywayz... Merry Christmas to the rest who have really enjoyed parties after parties in respective clubs, or family gatherings in your own comfortable houses or those prefer to stay at home just to enjoy some DVD watchings.. ^_^!

2005-12-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

Yep just got back from Malacca! whee...

I tell u, the food in Malaysia is always so good.. it never fails to make me smile.. shopping was alright.. had to be hasty and all because its a one day trip.. at night went A Famosa to bring the kids watch some Carnival show and Red Indian Performance with breathtaking Fireworks display.. Kewl.. And i dragged mummy and daddy to watch Haunted house 4D.. that kind where u have to wear some glasses and everything is so real..

I tell u.. it was more like horror to comedy not because the movie was a flop..but because my dearest mum was screaming and screaming like she is part timer of 'Emily rose' .. the effects were way too cool.. but she is a brave woman i must say! Muacks..

The previous few days were spent in Chalet wif stupid me drinking shots after shots of Vodka like free flow... keep drinkin until cannot walk properly... some more must chiong to Malacca today... BIG HEADACHE pls!

The night before was worse... imagine waking up like what? 6? and worked till 7..then rush to club..and went to chalet and could not really sleep until next morning! well i survived it! lol.. i am amazed at my tolerance level... YES AMAZED!

The guys are fantastic..fancy blasting "PUSSYCAT DOLLS" in REPEAT MODE and talking loudly while u are already somewhere between dreaming and sleeping.. FUCK is the word.. lol.. but had hell of fun la..

O yes and MOS was superb..exquisite club... i like the idea of having 4 different rooms of alternative genre of music... from Retro to RnB.. every room having different themes and crowd.. Awesome.. Do check out the 'PURE' room.. magnificently decorated with distinct white furnitures coupled wif comfortable beds and changing lights to suit the music.. fantastic! Its like the club featured in 'Sex and The city' - The BED..

Alright shant elaborate more..given that i can just fall asleep like NOW! alright Christmas is like the next day.. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! i am not anticipating anything though..cheers..

2005-12-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

So long since i woke up with a smile... Why?

Many good things seems to be coming to me towards the end of the month! how exciting.. Yest i received my first Christmas Pressie from this very special fren..! i am super touched.... melted lol...MUACK! i mean it was totally unexpected...given that i so not going to celebrate and yearn for Christmas like i used to be.. but well.. really full of gratitude!

And this morning, i received two invites to the first RETRO event of Ministry Of Sound! simply overwhelming..

And just only i decided to call up MOS to check something and so i dialled 100 for help..and ya noe what! she gave me phone no of MOH a.k.a MINISTRY OF HEALTH! lol.. and i was like can i check with you bout the entry fees and stuffs.. fuckin Hilarious lo..and she also bimbo lo.. answered my question accordingly until i realised i made a fool of myself in MOH lol!!

Gotta go back to work.. cant blog too much at work...

Is it a good sign or an impending disaster in disguise? we shall see bout thaT!

2005-12-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to One Fullerton wif alot of people... mostly Mel's frens.. anywayz.. she was super wasted lol! i aint better.. cos Kenji brought me in with free flow of drinks.. didnt feel good.. but drank alot.. haha

Anywayz.. this week gonna be so exciting.. gonna do lots of stuffs.. and Cher and Andrew are back in Singapore! after like so long...As bitchy as always, REALLY MISS CHER LIKE FUCK.. and thanks for the really nice and horny Kama Sutra gift..

Let me share this recent fetish of mine... not that kind of sick fetish like licking toes or whatever...but rather.. the new epitome of sexy! Girls wearing nothing but oversized man's long sleeves.. this will really turn me on...There ya go...lol

2005-12-13T21:14:00.000+08:00

Living my life better than ever right now... hehe =p

Its the same old me, doing mundane work everyday except for weekends.. But nevertheless never in my life have i treated my weekends so importantly.. the sudden rush of hormones to play right after Friday evening gives me so much thrills.. And wha la.. in less than what?

two weekS! and i'll be in NS! lol.. time flies... Anywayz ppl pls do catch THE DESCENT.. GUARANTEE NICE!

Arg..so this week is metrosexual week! gonna go facial wif Jeremy on Thurs haha.. Gosh.. There is so many things i wanna express in my lil portal of updates.. but well.. some things just not appropriate for blogs.. And once again i wanna compliment Immoral FEar.. she is awesome!

And i saw this Canon SHORT FILM FESTIVAL THINGY! Can i take part? hmmm.. i wanna learn to direct a short film! i am so full of passion for it!

Nah.. wont be updating often until like Christmas... i promise there will be pix! so for now... Ciaoz..

2005-12-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

Okay i got lots of updates.. but i seriously need to sleep RIGHT NOW!

More updates coming up on

--> extravagant buffet that made me really puke!
--> Game lan-ing
--> The car theory test challengE!
--> The Mysterious gal.. nope Woman.. she is awesome! haha..

Stay tuned...

2005-12-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

All i want for Christmas is......

RESIDENT EVIL 4 PS2 & to play NEVERWINTER NIGHTS

I am sulking because i simply have NO TIME to play my Computer Games! Arg... i love playing games and nobody's gonna stop me! lol... still a young boy in the heart i guess... without the innocence only...haha

And i have yet gone to Sentosa or Wild Wild Wet... sulks more.. ERR..

i feel the intangible nature of my pleadings...........

Tomorrow's gonna be a better day! whee.... Every morning.. its the same breakfast.. how nice if someone could make a sumptuous breakfast for me? pls la... hehe.. must have tuna, egg mayo or ham hor... lol..

Musing to myself once again!!! heck....

Another guy left on the rack for parsa malam... complaining and complaining...SHUT THE F UP TO MYSELF

not feeling depressed..just feeling unworthy... hmm..

2005-12-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

R.A.N.D.O.M -- S.T.U.F.F.S -- B.Y. -- M.E. -- T.O. -- L.A.U.G.H

HOW TO SATISFY A GIRL?

Caress, fondle, avoid the fat bits, sweet talks, touch, hug, love, respect, be gentle, be romantic, sensitive at times, surprise her...

HOW TO SATISFY A GUY?

Arrive naked. Full Stop..

HOW TO BATHE LIKE A GIRL?

scent the bath room
slowly strip
look into mirror
whine bout how fat she is
got tired of whining,
use expensive hair shampoo
rub hair for 15 mins
soaked gently into the bath tub
Use conditioner
wait for 15 mins while thinkin how to lose the fats
look into boobies, try to be confident although she knows it wont grow wif the amount of shampoo used
Finish bathing for more than 30 mins
Do a final whine wif the mirror
Pout
Cannot decide which new dress to wear..
afraid of what ppl will think of her..
Finally
Done...

HOW TO BATHE LIKE A GUY?

strip
Flex muscle and stare at how big the penis is n smile..
scratch balls
shampoo hair, no shampoo..use soap..
play wif hairstyles wif shampoo..
sing alot
dance and shake bon bons
wash armpit hair
if wife outside.. show wife how big his penis is
start to wash body wif same soap
got bored
FART loudly and create bass
think of ex gfs and get an erection
wank
felt better
clean up..
flex muscles again..
satisfied..
wear back worn clothes.
done..
PROCLAIMER: COPYRIGHTED FROM CHER AND A BOOK lol..

Women are like electric oven, need time to cook and need time to cool down
Men are like microwave, few seconds to cook and few seconds to cool down

HOW TO EXPLAIN WHY GUYS CANNOT MULTI TASK?

Look how fast his erection subside when u talk too much to him in the process of sex.. that explains why men seldom talk while having sex.. talk only B4 sex , not during

Women see relationship as the process and sex as the consequence
Men see sex as the process and more sex as the consquence

Disclaimer: These are just opiniated stuffs totally bias and came out of boredom.. for laughs... no offence.. but not all of these are written by me. Some are stuffs that i came across..enjoy..

2005-12-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

Been pretty busy recently and therefore the lack of updates.. anywayz.. dont think many ppl are visiting my blog anymore.. but for those who are still reading.. A big thanks.. hope i have been a great entertainer to spice up ya online time.. hehe.. =)

Alright..scandalous central since last week.. because of the tremendous amount of time spent on work.. a part of me is already on the verge of breaking down from the lack of entertainment and so after the previous clubbing in Why Not as well as pubbing in Alternative bar.. its Mambo Jumbo @ Zouk wif all my darling Simei Gang as well as Chin Chong ... a cutie addition lol...

What can i say bout Zouk? it was Heaven! i mean.. u must really put ur hands down for Zouk.. it never fails to make your Wednesday nite so filled up even if i would have to wake up at 6 thirty the following morning for work.. A mixture of RnB and Retro and a correct crowd equates a fabulous night.. grooving, gyrating, shaking that classic bon bons.. Emancipation! Saw Terrence Cao.. yeah.. he is suave.. and that explains Meyling uncontrollable hauling session..

And so Prom arrived on a very busy Friday.. it was not bad.. was having lots of fun.. and seeing so many ppl dressed so smartly and sexily for the girls.. its pretty much called 'The Night Of Lost Virginity' hahha.. but mine is still intact so ya.. like who wanna fuck me even if i am willing to.. oops vulgar.. Daniel Ong from 98.7 was so crap but i admire his amiable and witty performance as the entertainer for the night..

Then everything went terribly wrong @ ONE FULLERTON.. er.. the music there was sucky.. And actually i am quite envious of Ziyang and his gf's relationship.. then Ping danced wif me.. and er... apparently it was dirty dancing.. so ya.. it was kinda hot.. This crazy gal suddenly hug me and almost kissed me which i just gently put her away.. Met Ryan there too.. then it was at the later part where many ppl got drunk and stuffs.. it was total chaotic.. i mean.. know ya limits la ppl...i was very worried for the gals pls.. as in.. dont think its okay to get drunk or a lil tipsy.. ITS NOT..

unless u decide that u'll be the Nympth of The night.. Cum Hungry bitch.. or u love getting mixtures of puke and cum the next morning.. but glad most of my frens are alright after a while.. haiz.. I was a lil tipsy but i know what i am doing.. so ya...

Yesterday went out wif Zh.. it was so hilarious i tell u.. cos she wanted to see MOX Bar for a while.. and what happened was..we were expecting a few ppl inside the bar.. instead we were totally shocked to see so many ppl inside.. its supposed to be a URBAN MALE and DRAG SHOW event.. then very funny.. i tell u those we were near the door stared at us for a moment.. like are we in the wrong place or something... cos its supposedly a gay event.. then she just smiled and i swear it was such an embarrassing experience.. i even got this water based lubricant and a condom.. to practice safe sex.. haha... Then Zh immediately went to the toilet wif me wif all the glaring eyes.. We laughed until we almost died..

Guess i dont write too much bout what happened already.. but it was a splendid weekend..

2005-11-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

Okay watched Prime on Sunday... it was well.. realistic i would say... a young guy liking some old woman that can be his mum.. But then.. i find this movie extremely related to me.. as in i really like older girls.. but u see.. i go for anyone that makes me feel good..

And on a serious note ... i think i have a crush on soemone.. oh no!! i dont want all those love now! shoo! cos simply i'll be going army and come on realistically speaking.. how can i expect myself to be those really lovely couples that can last through ARMY.. i dont believe.. its just impractical.. somemore.. ya noe..my luck on love aint that good.. i wish i can be more optimistic..but i just cant.. i need some treatment.. MAKE ME BELIEVE!!!!

Friday was scandalous day.. went Why Not after Danny's BBq.. wif Gary they all lo.. Shant eleborate more.. its embarrassing.. haha..

Sat went to some Les pub a.k.a. Alternative bar.. which apparently the boss dislikes men.. therefore.. i was the only guy.. what a place to be in.. haha.. but well..Linux and Ryan wanted to go so ya..

This Wed is Mambo @ Zouk.. whoa.. what am i getting to man! Going to les, gay, straight club.. whats next? confuseD? haha.. o and i wanna go Attica! on the 15th hope i can get a leave...

And this Prom of mine... cost me a BOMB! and i seriously dont noe if i made the correct choice to go.. i mean.. ppl dont seem to be really enthu leh.. we'll see how it goes lo.. i am seriously hoping this last event would be a really blasting one... although how much we all complain bout the hotel's quality, or the sch sucks no matter what.. but STILL..

ONS!! ppl.. thats all i ask.. but i do know the gals spent quite a lot i think..so are the guys.. hmm... lets look our most glamorous!!!

2005-11-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today went to work as usual and here are some random pics taken..

Thats Auntie Norita.. she is 8 months pregnant.. and so i have to take care of her every now and then.. and i heard the baby is a boy!

Me getting spastic and all.. in front of the laptop... professionalism okay..

There is still auntie Kelly and Kardir which i have YET gotten a decent photos from them..update soon..hehe

i am really tired..met up wif summer and xiang gu.. had a great time.. saw blardy fen mei mei.. She will get it! haha...before i sleep i wanna say...

I DISLIKE FANCY UNDERWEAR! haha.. =p

and.. DONT LAUGH WHILE HAVING SEX haha...

2005-11-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Heres a look at my office... wif my idiotic face.. sorry ah quality not good.. cos its from camera phone... and the lighting not there... eh... o did i mention that i highlighted my hair? its quite obvious but nice.. but somehow my phone takes everyone's hair as black haha weird..

Guess who i met in my office! CUI FEN haha.. therefore the overrated sentence..the world is so small!! haha.. somemore so long never see her le.. and Maggie is also from my company different headquarters... how cool!!

met up wif Pam after work.. decided to give her a surprise although i was darn tired... somehow she look real young and pretty today... i just dont want to say cos ya noe.. such compliments are like multi orgasms to her.. i dont wanna give her a mental orgasm.. lol

Then she was mortified by some stuffs which i am inconvenient to say.. =p.. then we were like talking bout our future.. i mean.. she really got petrified by the fact that .. its really not that far away from marriage, family, babies and stuffs..haha.. it was so fun talking bout our predictions in the future... bout how her son would be taking PSLE and her fren's son taking A levels.. farking hilarious lo..

It must be the absence after some time that keep us talking like endless..all the gossips and stuffs...

Well.. the other day while discussing wif Aur why is it that many ppl just cannot get over wif break ups after even like so long.. we came to a final conclusion...

We miss the person after break up not because we still love them, although we do care.. but its just that the person has already become a natural habit..

Have we ever wondered how we always expect the other one to message us sweet nothings every morning, or cuddle wif each other everytime we are together.. its all in the making of human's worst habit..

We miss every aspect of habitual reliance... We selfishly want to re-enact all the possibilities of the 'good' feeling everyday.. and after we broke off..

We blame their lies
We deny our break up
We continue to believe in a patch up
We supposedly claim they still love us

But eventually, its just basically a vicious cycle wif the purpose to kick off this nasty habit of ours.... to live on.. to live without this habit..

I find this really true and thats why i have decided to pen this down to share... just an opinion though...

2005-11-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

o dear.... i realised i do become ambitious when i am in a competitive working environment...

Can u all believe i am already into the office politics @ Bax... as in how i know some university undergrad thinkin he/she is so indispensable and therefore the arrogance.. the backstabbings.. therefore emphasizing the oxymoron - impeccable reality..

But its getting so fun.. as in to witness gradually the working heirarchy haha.. o no.. if not for my early army enlisting on the 7th.. i would have gotten myself attached wif the company for more than a month.. and i would then have my own desk near my mum.. haha.. although i will be under her... as in ya she will be my boss..

I will have my own computer too! whoa... u cannot imagine how much i am into the work force right now...i feel so competitive and old.. i dont believe in no competition.. i believe in fighting for survival.. although survival and compassion dont come together..but this is life..and embrace it!

Even after long hours of work.. i have this urge to bring back some doc to complete wif my laptop over expresso grandE haha.. but my mum was worried bout my health though.. she told me.. i dont have to over push myself.. just take it as an experience..

BUT THE MORE I DONT WANT MY DEPARTMENT TO LOSE OUT, THE MORE I WANT TO STRIVE..

I even have a vision.. lol.. i am trying my best to also improvise the various techniques to increase efficiency which is very impt for Air shipments.. therefore i am gonna do some research now to improve the time lags during peak periods.. and therefore be more efficient..

after work went over to Bugis to meet my mummy and sam for some shopping a.k.a retail therapy.. had some dim sum first before scanning many shops till i am really so weary.. but somehow the feeling of purchasing stuffs from what u earn feels so good.. oh no.. its not a good sign... the working phenomenal is setting in slowly.. and next time u will see me carrying lap top and working, wearing tie and suits.. having cake at Secret Recipe haha... my new aspiration...

And so love and social life.. segregated by more than proportionately haha..sounds familiar? cos its Econs... haha

THE FUNNIEST THING IS MY WORK REQUIRES EXCHANGE RATE!! haha.. so practical and stimulating to study Econs... come everyone puke at me wif Econs.. the revolting revolution.. if u get what i mean..

but well... i am only working to the 21st and so there is still some time for me to enjoy a lil more social life and maybe a QL ( QUICKIE LOVE )? haha.. jkjk.. i wonder how kinky it is to have office sex... digressing a lil.. tsk tsk...

I better stop before my bestie Summer shake her head again wif dismay and telling me why is it i am still unattached.. because of my mind always about sex and hollow and bla bla.. haha.. the thing is... i do admit i do fantasize alot..but thats not MAJORITY of my brain structure... the rest are hidden traits....

YA RIGHT! haha..wadever.. i shall run now... i sense .....
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DANGER AND ANIMOSITY !

2005-11-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

Met up wif Jas over the weekend too... and we updated quite alot.. until we decided to watch my utter horror

HARRY POTTER - Goblet of Fire

and as i have anticipated.. no wait not even expecting a good show.. and so i have decided to give it another chance to fight for my top 10 movies..

TURNED out.. the overrated and commercialised movie is just another OVERLY FANTASIZED FANTASY.. Why not come out wif Harry Potter - guide to wanking.. or add in more elements, the air, water, fire.. the yin and the yang...

Enough said...

But to be fair to the film makers.. i would say the adaptation of the story was not bad.. the bad thing bout this movie is... the cheesy lines and the shallow character focus and so so graphics... definitely not a block buster.. its a busted blockbuster..

but as always.. mass media plays an impt role... PROPAGANDA.. so we will expect a top hit! sighs

2005-11-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

a bit of editing and stuffs, i am done wif a new layout..

So today's my first day at work in Changi cargo complex.. and boy did i experience a real kind of working life.. Well.. i must say i have learnt an awful reality.. and that is.. single is worse than married.. well.. thats what i experienced in work..

I am the youngest so to speak.. but then the aunties were very good to me.. Aunt Norita is pregnant and expecting a baby boy! She loves make up.. And Aunt Kelly is a concerned mum who refuse to let her daughters enter convent schs... so funny.. to listen to the rantings of different mums... apparently i was able to mingle wif them.. weird..

And so i was the only unmarried soul in the company..hmm. although there are others quite chio as well..but well.. i dont get much chance to talk to them too so ya...

I was practically so busy wif work and picking up numerous phone calls.. i actually forgot the time.. and guess what.. i worked from 8:30 am to 7 pm.. kewl eh? haha.. i just couldnt cease myself from working more and more.. and many left to ya noe attend to their respective families..while i have nothing but to work and work my ass off.. feelin kinda good though... peculiar but addictive.. haha

Tomorrow's yet another round of work.. yawns..

2005-11-13T12:14:00.000+08:00

I have always been inspired with people writing a matured and convincing GP essay and U noe what? i have found one.. which is a follow-up to the previous post.. She is from RJC, most prob a les.. judging from her ardent reactions to issues on gays and lesbians.. the intro she wrote really challenges the entire nation's GP standards.. -applause- haha.. so interesting...

http://www.livejournal.com/users/immoralfear/104817.html

2005-11-13T11:59:00.000+08:00

After reading this ImmoralFears blog while blog surfing... not blog crashing.. i would say she is a fervent feminist..a radicle one.. and also an activist.. i have decided to repost these few sentences which have the 'thrust' effect.. its about the basic human rightS..

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess.I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

2005-10-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

I am back!

Just sent Pammie home... and the most scandalous thing is bout to take place.. The new topic discussion for her family lol.. Her mother saw us in the shop just now.. and i tell u.. o m g.. its gonna be the topic for the month..

Pammie has agreed to bet wif me on several really wild things after As.. We'll be going to a club and bet on who gets a tight slap first lol..

I tell u i am so gonna win this.. WHY?

Cos there is such thing as difference between Men and Women

Take for example a guy that asked this sexy lady if he can touch her left tits... she be like -PIAK-

But if a girl were to ask a guy if she can feel his crotch.. he'll be more like "kewl" lol..

See the difference..

Hmm.. just random stuffs la..before i revise my Econs again... hehe

2005-10-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

Make it quick then.. er two piece of news..

Officially i have graduated from TPJC..so to speak.. thank god.. a f up sch.. but kinda sad that our class arent really close at all.. hmm.. Since the start of this year.. i donno why too... i am only close to some.. it shouldnt be this case ya? and thats why i skipped Graduation Assembly.. crap..

2ndly, Mindef sent their beloved messacre letter.. I am enlisted on the 7th JAn.. wha piang 1st batch.. hmm.. TOOT TOOT TOOT.. i am A SOLDIER.. haha... Strangely i want to go army though.. its quite fun what.. all the training to keep fit.. come on lo... guys need to be fit.. i scared my tummy compel against my will and decide to unite as one.. lol

Okay random stuffs.. lets see.. recently is Teng's birthday .. she and Eric so sweet...gave me a choco cake yesterday.. then Eric somemore drove us around... i must say his driving is like sports car..whee...

Summer's driving me crazy.. its official.. she is the coffin and i am the corpse.. she has emotionally and physicially drained me after 5 hours of rantings..

Pamela's birthday today.. Joanne may be driving us to supper.. whee.. that sexy lady that drives the sultry mAzda.. lol

alright.. shant talk more cos this is a general blog.. read my private blog if ya noe what i mean.. update soon..

2005-10-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

Alrighty.. MIA and Self reflection and improve period.. Good luck to everyone for the upcoming exam.. yep stress level is up... soaring and soaring... get crazy~! lol.. :)

2005-09-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Okay this is getting unpleasant, not that i really care.. but it simply disappoints me to see myself getting a fuckin O for maths for the very first time!!!! o gosh.. i have been practising Maths but it is just that i took a lil break on maths and there it goes gone case.. Chem was alright.. still waiting for other papers.. But never mind.. i am optimistic.. Gonna do lots of maths again.. like come on its the easiest paper to get A..

It must be my complacency in Maths.. yes it is.. so yep.. more mugging for MAths and i am sure i am capable of clinchin that bloody A in As.... alright..

I seriously love prelims to loads.. cos it is something to keep my momentum in studying to orientate correctly... I mean.. A levels has already been my choice although i could have chosen something else.. So live wif it.. and be enslaved!!

6 more weekS!!! gambate.. no more clubbing for me until further notice..haha.. alright time to sleep to chiong again tomorrow.. i love to have set backs given that it inspires me to do better.. just like Sec 4's prelim.. haha..

But sad to say my class aint moving at the same pace.. wif some snobbish ppl around.. Haiz.. sad case.. its no use if u get high marks and low EQ..why cant they just understand.. never mind.. ignore mode...

2005-09-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

Lets see, yesterday was Mel's birthday and i am very sure she enjoyed herself pls.. considering the fact that i accompanied her till the wee hours over KTV..

Okay this aside, would be the PCB gal.. she is fucked up i tell u.. i have learnt not to judge a person so fast.. And i thought she seems nice.. o great, she actually stole Teng's EZ link lo.. i am fuckin irate pls.. Teng left her wallet on the table and we both witnessed what they were about to do, and that is to keep the wallet.. U CANNOT IMAGINE HOW F UP SHE IS...Argg.. du lan..

Anyway i think her not bad lookin face should be of no use given her f up character.. Her face better get rammed down by a bus consecutively i tell u.. Pek chek pls.. the evil side of humanity.. haiz.. how disappointing..

Anywayz apart from this, many other things have been happening la..

Seriously break ups are tough but there is a good way to break up alright, although there are no best ways to do so.

Break ups should have a solid reason and not avoiding. Many ppl have the misconceptions esp guys. They think that by trying to protect themselves from being the bad guy, they can avoid telling the truth or the reason of break up.. This is so bullshit.. Avoiding just show how worse off and coward the person is.

NEVER BREAK UP OVER SMS, EMAIL, POST-IT!

2005-09-23T13:08:00.000+08:00

hmm..i almost forgot i have a blog..and i used to love rantting stuffs in here.. but recently lesser.. i mean there are seriously too many bitches and bastards out there that i seriously cannot finish bitchin bout them.. but then.. i have another reason not to do so.. I GET SUED! lol..

I mean.. maybe bitchin may not be a serious offence after all.. maybe next time i need to ask a handful of ppl say 50 and sign a referendum to all agree that the bitch is really fucked up.. before i can defame her.. o gawd how tiring..

Heck.. okay lets see.. i am having a headache now because of yesterday nite at momo.. HAVOC i tell u..

Wait.. okay the prelims is over.. whee! and i met up wif the usual gangs.. love them so so much.. MUACKS! and of course my bloody fucked up revolutionist best fren Summer.. she is still amazing! considering how she just cant keep her mouth shut.. takin me down wif her menacing words.. lol.. i was like totally feeling extremely scared of women those of ages 20 and above after talkin to her.. she is a phobia inducer... But we know we love each other to bits..

O back to MOMO.. well went over there like an impromptu fuck fest.. so i went wif Pamela ahem and Yong Sheng.. Then met up wif two YANGS.. lol twin bros.. okay saw really lots of ppl there.. Shant mention all..tts not the main point.. We clubbed till 4? ya... the music was awesome.. Pamela and I went havoc and she is totally sluttest of the sluts.. i mean we totally strutt our stuffs like we are professional dancers..haha.. She went mad at a few cute guys.. Yong Sheng was lil tired.. then Alvin was there.. He got drunk.. and 'violated' me.. Esp after the club saying how much he love me.. lol.. I WONDER IF HE KNOW IT.. its so fun to watch ppl get drunk...

Scantily clad gals are everywhere... its like an arena of BREAST RODS.. flying towards u in all directions.. But its alright.. part of the fuck routine.. U need to feel lust, show lust.. and there u go.. drunk and kena fucked..

AS the nite progress, u see how many drunk ppl being carried away.. I mean the gals cant they just protect themselves.. Can u imagine u getting drunk and ur supposedly good boy frens will take care of u.. ya.. take care..

Fuck ur PCB.. and u wont realise..

u wake up wif mixtures of overdose alcohol, cigarettes, vomits and cum..

u realised ur breast is being touched, ur CB feels weird.. u r in someone house.. and probably u had gangbang and u did not even know.. u probably had so much oral u never thought u could have.. unconscious that u actually have the capability to reach multiple orgasm wif ur innate ability to finish 20/64 positions of Karma Sutra.. lol.. worse till u may had undergoned a circle jerk right on ur bloody face filled of cum.. maybe some gals love it.. then i will not comment on that..

Haiz..thats clubbin for all of us.. embrace it, otherwise dont club.. or know what ya doing.. U see how many different gals just trying to show that they are drunk, i say those should get fucked first.. maybe then she realised how unwanted that sort of attention would be... But then.. all of those are really their business.. all i know is my frens are alright, yep had a wonderful nite!

2005-09-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

Whee.. non stop action in sch today!

First day of sCh... and guess what? PRELIMS! lol

Why am i excited... cos i am so gonna kick ass for my Chem paper.. er wait...

GP's compo was like what the hell.. i did something bout Singaporeans being slaves to technology.. and i did a whole matrix style argument.. which is so profound and complex that i pretty much can expect a high score or total flop.. i have risked it! haha... the save thing is to talk bout how technology has created over reliance while i have decided to not just focus on this but continued in arguing.. how technology is unable to replace the humane touch of emotions and expressions.. er... hope it works.. kinda hard to argue through..

then Compre paper is way below standard.. its like a compre paper set by some inexperience teachers as can be seen from the questions asked.. i mean.. how easy can that application question get la today? so weird.. other schs are like so freaking hard.. heck

Chemistry paper was quite easy with some mistakes here and there... should turn out not bad ba for paper 3.. 10 freaking long essay questions.. i was pulsating and my hands can precipitate salt i tell u.. its so freaking tiring and long.. arg...

Hope tomorrow's maths paper can get like high marks..

But Econs? ya know what! KISS MY ASS! lol.. good game for econs.. On wednesday.. maybe i need to like pray here pray there.. let me be pious for once..

During Chemistry i can almost just bang at the table to kill myself.. o wait.. i then dont want.. later descend to 18th level of hell and repeat what i did everyday.. yeeks.. okay now what am i talking bout? F off Ben.. haha.. Sign off!

2005-09-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

I just simply dont comprehend the MDA.. esp that senior manager that bitch.. She is so contradicting pls.. okay b4 i rant my displeasures vehemently, take a look at thie poster..

Can u actually believe that it is being BANNED!

i was like @#$%.. like how spastic can that MDA get.. thats why this poster is replaced by another one around our SUNNY island.. the contradiction is this.. there is this play call quills.. and MDA permits this play even though there is 1 hour of MALE FRONTAL NUDITY.. and it is not banned cos there are artisitic reasons to it.. HOW RUBBISH.. i am pretty much irate because i am a ardent MOvie goer and i could not believe Censorships are that rubbish in Singapore.. Argg.. But never theless i am gonna help this director by the name of ERIC Khoo to promote this movie which coincidentally is one of the Co producers of 15!

Sounds exciting? yep.. do watch it.. i think it will be kinda sweet.. and O they made it M18 cos of one lesbian scene.. how nice.. __ .. I was at the verge to submit a more GP kind of comment to TODAY NEWSPAPER but i am simply too lazy.. haha.. but anywayz.. off i go to study le

2005-09-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

Whee the male slut is back wif more exclusive treats for his ardent readers, if there are any! Nah..its more like a quick update..feelin real headache right now..arg.. Shiatx...

Well sorry for the days of Non existence.. perhaps it may be a good thing.. anywayz... was perusing some web pages and came across this interesting person.. NO.. u must be thinkin a 18 yo boy surfing the web must be for some porn to jerk off or something...but NO! i am not always that sexual.. I was pretty shock that i have actually surfed the web for like 4 hours..gosh..i gotta rest soon..otherwise my neck would be strained even worse..

O where was i.. er.. o ya.. i stumbled across this Asian Comedian by the name of Margaret Cho.. i tell u she is the best... As elan as she is, She is actually a feminist and homosexual friendly comedian.. I was laughin all my way when i heard her talking bout men having periods..

She was like " i have been wondering.. why do straight men freak out when i talk bout my period.. i mean its not that i have complained alot, considering how much it happens.."

Then she added "If straight men have periods, u will never hear the end of it. Because u noe they would never have protection. They would be using old socks, coffee filters. Every bachelor apartment would look like a murder scene."

It was farking funny if u noe what i mean.. especially the old socks part.. i guess only my sexual dearest Cher would comprehend.. oops! haha..

Actually today i have been pondering bout my life.. i realised i have an aim in life already.. I mean judging at how pathetic and negligible my love life is.. i can jolly well vacuum it away... so i left wif frens, families and studies.. i have 3/4 most important thing.. its aint that bad ya? haha.. I hope one day i can open a pub preferably wif higher age limits..so that teenagers wont get in.. Why? cos they try to get free entry most of the time anyway ( i also ).. they arent buying like a whole vodka or something..

Then i wanna direct a movie.. hmm.. thats like quite surrealistic to think of..but its a want.. so it may not happen.. Then i settle down as a publicist, public relations or consultants.. thats pretty much what i wanna do..Air steward also not bad.. or maybe journalist.. and emulate the ways how Xia Xue and Sarong Party girl get their fame to eventually get to write on the columns of New paper..

I mean ppl love shockin stories.. dont ya agree... whether its true or not..as long as u r famous.. u tell everyone u had a menage a trois.. u r everywhere.. and maybe once in a while when u aint that famous.. u can start coming out wif ur own controversies.. like maybe saying i slept wif my 'nanny' like how Jude Law successfully created.. Bogus or real who cares? the thing is the story must be juicy and u r thick skinned enough to be defamed...

Alright.. its just my tiny piece of thoughts to share... anyway... i was thinkin Sienna Miller actually is pretty much damn hot.. I guess i am getting more matured and intellectual recently.. not as in acadamically but the stuffs i am doing... Can u imagine how much documentaries i enjoyed watching? goodness...so weird.. Okay updates pretty soon..

2005-08-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

Yes i noe i have not been updating bout stuffs... well.. i wont be updating much during this period till i finish my prelims.. now did i realise how much time has been wasted.. Even as i am typing now, so many things can be done.. I shall make it short, i feel the impending stress almost filling up my brain, having headaches!!

Its imperative i know, and i am on my fullest gear! lol.. These few days have not been going canteen, been making sandwiches to save time, thats how economical and time saving i am in the process of attaining.. And just now finally bought Fernie's Birthday pressie.. Kinky kinky.. Shhh.. alright.. off i go

2005-08-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

Its finally removed i think, the so called corn underneath my feet.. i have already plastered it over wif Corn plaster for like 5 days already and finally its gone.. heng... Reminiscing many years when i developed corn under my leg..i have to go for operation la.. during the operation, i can practically feel the knife frictioned wif my bones as if sculpting something nice out of my bone.. its excruciating i tell u.. after the operation

But now i have a more worrying thing in mind.. My neck have been feeling really painful and next Thurs i am going over to Changi hospital to seek help from this renowned Bone specialist.. and i better hope no operation is needed.. Kinda worried now.. but well hope everything can be solved without operation because the neck would be a major operation which cant guarantee 100percent success.. which means there is a possibility that one of my nerves give way and i am dead... Gosh... so scary.. Touch wood.. fingers X

-thats my life, thats my fate, thats my love, a never reciprocating process-

2005-08-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

I think i am so freaking bad.. Why? because of that pussy filled juiced up song.. lol.. I must say i have bring so much obscenities and vulgarities to some of my frens by making them addicted to that Khia song.. like how Fernie actually put the whole lyrics down lol..

do it do it do it, do it now, lick it good, suck this pussy just like u should..

Ya know what? such songs are nice anyway.. there is just this wow factor incorporated within such songs..not to mention the ever orgasmic voices of Ciara.. u noe that light yet sexy voice..totally mind blowing..

and i must say Kenji is such an ass.. okay i am jokin but his head is so big, i feel like deflating it wif a prick..AHH!!! =) but nice to talking to him over the phone la..

So hows life for me?

I wouldnt say its broing although most of the stuffs are mundane anyway.. But often i do things without knowing it.. it kinda scares me.. Am i gradually sinking into madness? Sometimes i just lock myself in a room and didnt realised i have stoned for a long time.. I wasnt thinking of anything leh... just so weird.. Possessed by moi moi? eew..

update more tomorrow or something.. i aint concentrating on my work now.. gonna be more focused..ciaoz

2005-08-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

I tried something really cool..and i have remixed my very first DJ song.. lol... theres a mixture of Ciara - 1,2 step, goodies and Khia - My neck my back ( dirty version ).. Anyone wanna listen to my debut song can message me ya.. not very impressive la..but its still able to shake some buttsiess..

Today's lesson was totally drainage system.. totally drained... brain cells kena exterminated during maths.. the number of questions she went through was like whoa.. and the questions arent those direct ones.. goodness me...

Kinda worried for my parents.. hadnt seen them for like a week or so? kinda miss them.. esp my mum.. donno where she is now.. sobx.. all i noe is they are like settling down at SengKang wif my youngest bro.. so i am somewhat indepedant guy now? so i am just a rubbish to be thrown away.. haha.. jokin...

Kino is like super slow... i ordered a book like 4 weeks ago and its still not here!!! killing me softly ya.. Just now had a great chat wif Mel like since so long.. my maths preparation is almost done and halfway thru Chem.... hmm..think i should continue my Chem for now.. before settling myself into the gutter - ECONS! give me a break.. i need a kit-kat..

2005-08-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

I must confess that i am addicted to Korean Drama once again.. its aint easy to get out of it whenever my Aunt starts to bring back all the latest ones.. and i must say.. i officially declare war with all Korean directors.. They are so evil.. alwayz making us crave for more.. And the next thing u noe.. the characters end up dying.. one dead is as if not enough.. they must like make the entire cast die...how SM attitude is that.. its like we enjoy watchin sad people having really tragic lives..

There is never good ending in Korean Drama.. some have happiness bla bla..but at the end she probably be so stupid to cross the farking road wif her eyes blinded and BANG! she is dead.. and they will play the really sad song at the end.. which ironically i am also addicted.. Come to think of that..indulging myself in such dramas actually makes me feel good.. donno why...

The evil thing is even Korean Drama cheats on me and makes me weep for no apparent reason..and eventually u realise some of the things u expect is not up to what u have anticipated and theres when u realised ur tears are for rationing..lol ... and this farking Korean Drama cheated on my feelings..But its still very nice la... i only dislike the ending..

Its called " I am sorry, I love you "

Can u all like look at the mother.. the first picture at the bottom.. Goodness.. how chio la... And the lead actress is the one that acted in "tales of two sisters" and the two lead guys are handsome too.. so what does it mean? gorgeous casts...plus point... woo hoo!

This korean drama is dedicated to my dearie Cher.. haha.. go watch and cry till u die and flood ur room.. i did and it felt good.. i cant believe i just said that.. To be honest i do not regret to shed my tears in front of something that is obviously contrived.. cos they managed to touch my heart.. and it felt so so good.. That is when i advocate dream from reality.. but eventually.. one must still face reality..

2005-08-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

Quick updates.. Friday went China bLack.. Zhong Guo Hei.. wif Mel and Yang.. its like how long since i clubbed wif Mel.. Jia was there too and Yang's fren Ben.. Glad to see some familiar faces around..but its like it may also be a bad thing... Shant talk much bout that night.. its just simply dancing and catching up...

Then Sat was Farewell dinner for the SSC members.. YEs.. the spirit of Sea sports club will prevail.. Yep.. and so it is the first farewell dinner before the actual one which is the prom.. I mean.. time really flies ya.. the next thing you noe.. ur Alevels are coming.. prelims are like less than a month.. and wala i am off to serve the nation wif BOTAK hair! faintx.. Anyway the pictures are at Fernie's blog.. havent receive all yet.. It was marvelous.. i mean the J1s really put up a magnificent show yesterday nite.. However the food ah.. little bit not up to expectation.. but nevertheless.. i ate like 4 servings lol.. everyone was like takin pictures and stuff..and they suddenly saw me still devouring and enjoyin my dinner.. leaving them like agape?

Anywayz nice to see Jemima dancing wif Quan wei lol.. its so gonna be first quality news.. and i self endorse myself as channelnewsasia... okay inside joke... After dinner we had quite a lot of fun chatting wif the year 1s and i am glad they had a great time too..

And thanks to Huifen.. she initiated a massive defamation of Ben in her blog.. i dont wanna talk bout it le.. haha... scandalous.. O i have learnt a new word to replace copulation as courtesy to sarong party girl.. its call schtup.. Two person schtupping on the bed.. lol.. how weird it sounds..but its really in the dictionary...

2005-08-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

Okay i am looking for this song something like " My head, my back, my pussy and my ____" donno how it goes but i kinda got addicted to it..

Okay so yesterday night went Gotham Penthouse... Reached there like around 10? and guess what.. its full house.. but then thanks to this sultry girl who sold 8 tickets for us.. Thanks alot.. okay she is drop dead gorgeous.. The crowd was alright, met lots of ppl... the music was initially awesome until some fucked up person caused the sound system to break down..

Now thats something new... Never have i been to a club that stop halfway... total turn off pls... Then the music resumes but as expected everyone is not really in the correct mood..but well Its National Day already.. haha..

Then i saw someone unexpectedly.. well.. thats life...

Recently read an article bout dick lengths... this is true k.. Just for general info.. from now on i am so gonna hide my feet... haha.. According to some University, they have proven that guys feet length can determine the length of his dicky...

Dick length = ( Length of feet (cm) + 5cm ) /2

Yep thats simple..Instantly i went to do some measuring myself, as in my feet... and ya its quite accurate.. but dont bother to look for my feet size.. lol.. so if a guy had his feet like 25 cm.. so u can somehow expect his penis length to be about 15cm a.k.a 6 inches.. okay.. for guys ya all can go figure out if its true.. Then immediately i thought..shucks.. i better wear extra large shoes.. so that they think my dick is that long but it is inaccurate haha.. i am talking rubbish yet again...

So all the girls out there..go check ur boyfrens up.. if they dont show u.. never mind..measure their feet..lol

I somehow missed watching Fireworks Display.. i crave crave crave for it pls.. recollecting those times when I just went to watch Fireworks wif Summer just outside esplanade, it was breathtaking lo...

Just downloaded my Ciara Album.. its hot! kk.... time to sign off.. Ciaoz

2005-08-07T15:54:00.000+08:00

This is real sad sad situation..

Some news struck me this morning..adding to the fact that i was totally shock, i felt real melancholy i would say..

Recollecting the previous night just after the drinking session.. Everyone was pretty drunk.. and she was there lookin real depressed.. and we left in our respective Taxis..

and she left alone..

her backview was filled with solemn..

but that sadness of hers has disippitated..

because that would be the last time we saw her...

Please tell me everything would be fine... I hope my silent prayers would help.. there i am.. sitting right in front of my com reflecting and praying..

I may not know her that well.. maybe just an aquaintance, but so? I almost wept.. but i didnt.. because i am more determined to find out why did she do that? Is it all worth it? Please tell me everything's fine...

The bottomless hole within a souless boy's heart

2005-08-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Mandarin hotel.. Nope i wasnt having some wild sex on comfortable beds... I just had some drinking sessions at the Bar at the 38 storey.. It was quite breathtaking i would say..but night in Singapore does not look as busy as i expected..

Anywayz had this test tube liquour with Vodka base and some other liquour... And thanks to Zach's Sis's gf for the treat! -bow- But hor.. i damn jealous can.. Two lovey dovey couples and left me and Benji.. yes coincidentally two Bens... Never mind.. Love very exciting meh.. i can also go hug my toilet bowl.. kns

O and thanks Benji for the CAb.. owe u one... Yep.. thanks to u la.. keep saying the woman look like the MAid.. U noe how many momos are there right now.. its like 12 midnight already lo kaoz... Although i dont really believe in ghost but i do believe in spirits..

Well.. I donno who i am already... i am simply lost and confused.. its a lie if i say i do not want someone to love me... But the prob is .. even if i label myself as Bisexual.. given more options.. love seems to be another extra mile from me... Its so hard for me to fall in love again... If u ask me to like a guy.. yes i can.. but its still feels so different.. beneath me i still want a girl..donno why also... But with a girl, i tend to be very picky on their behaviours.. o goodness..i am just one fucked up male whore... Seriously, dont ask me if i am gay or straight anymore.. i am just label crisis..full stop..

I am afraid that one of these days, i will lose the entire meaning of relationships.. I am sorry that i have already lost the supposedly way to court girls.. the normal bastard ways.. sad to say.. most girls love to be showered with sweet talks and bastard behaviours..its stupidity but at least bitches and bastards get together.. i have nothing..

Maybe the best way for me is to be single and indulge more in retail therapys lol.. Donnno la..see how it goes...

Thats life for Ben... Embrace it.. Accept it and move on...

2005-07-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

So it was Danny's Birthday party last SAt and boy did i lost so much money in MahJong.. lol.. but then the mahjong peeps were good ppl..they actually dont want to take my money..i mean i am still noob..they feel its extortion.. but then u should see how jia hao scold Takira gross bitch... damn funny la.. had a great time..

This chalet damn interesting la.. its like even Danny donno how many ppl he has invited.. so everyone was like new faces to me.. Hit it pretty well wif Adrian, and we talked for some time.. Nice guy though.. haha.. Oo. and Zach my di long time never see him liao.. miss him lo.. hugx..and Stupid Edison too... glad i went cos so long never see all of the guys liao..

Anywayz..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DANNY! slut...

Sorry i have to rush through..cos i am pretty tired right now...laters